Rhythms Of The Mind.

Bad Day

2010-05-04T19:58:00.003+08:00

Music: Lady Gaga & Beyonce - Telephone
Mood: Poor
Random Note: Relationships are a little overrated somedays.

Today was a terrible day.

I've been really occupied with my school work over the past weeks. It's just that I feel that I am not performing up to my expectations, and that my mind just isn't in the right place.

The only times I've found peace and allowed my mind to rest were:
- playing Telephone on loop on my mp3
- counting numbers in my head while staring blankly into space

Sounds so emo but hey, I get to express whatever I want to on my own blog yeah?

I'm feeling, as of late, increasingly difficult to juggle with my life. I'm having great issues handling people, and I'm not catching up fast enough in school. Maybe it's because I am constantly expecting more from myself and others around me...and when things do not go my way, I crack.

Why do I like to be happy...or look happy on pictures that I appear in...haha! That was just random.

So yeah back to my expectations: I think I am just not coping well. I expect too much from everything around me. It's like the science of things are just pointing in the oppersite direction when I try to make sense of them. What sort of a person would Jon be without expectations? Without goals? Without plans?

Well he certainly would not be in Sydney today.

I am beginning to find it dragy to wake up in the morning and open my books to work. My mind's thinking: why bother when you aren't even in the mood? I doubt I will wanna try talking it out, least I get labelled as being too co-dependent. I honestly think I can handle my physical survival well enough (well not that history had proved that I can't).

So I was late for lecture because I didn't get my ticket to school today. Silly me. Ok. Get over it.

Note to self: You are becoming really difficult to live with. Yeah I know...which is why I will isolate myself until I get better...haiz...

Sux to know that after all these years, I can still feel that whatever was really important to me was just a fickle bit of my imagination. People hang out with me because I am economically or emotionally useful to them? I don't know, can't answer that myself now can I? I ain't seeking any answers anyways, for now. I'm not questioning the credibility of others here, I'm just not sure if what I was working hard for amounts to anything of substance.

It all just feels so messy. I think I'm going to go out for a night stroll...let the cold air keep me sane for a while...

Jon

Quick Post

2010-04-25T07:00:00.003+08:00

Music: Lady Gaga & Beyonce - Telephone
Mood: Great!
Random Note: Kickass was awesome.

I haven't updated for a fortnight! It's cuz I had been feeling really shitty~ had a terrible throat and an ongoing fever right in the middle of my exams.

You know, when a person is sick...it is really difficult to keep yourself in check on the emotional plane. You just feel so bad physically, and then you start not being able to do other things because you are in pain. Then you may start blamming yourself for not being able to get somethings accomplished (even so far as to why you let yourself fall sick).

Haha...can't say much about it now that I'm actually feeling better, but I do know how a person who is in constant pain feels =/

Things had been tough in school. I am struggling with my finance assignment (I REALLY DUN LIKE FINANCE), and things seem to be catching up on pace i.e. more readings, more content. I am gonna try to devote the next couple of days to work...need to catch up and stay in good condition.

Caught the movie Kickass. It was really awesome!!! As in, the way it was done with a young kid thrashing the mobs and all...violent, yes. Guess I wasn't thinking much about that, but was more on the action and film xD

Had made adjustments to my diet a little...gonna attempt to take more healthy stuff. Haven't been doing my runs nor any form of exercise! Arrrgh...makes me stress just thinking how much there is ahead to do! All the things that need to be completed...

Onward with life!

Jon

Positive Reinforcement

2010-04-11T18:53:00.003+08:00

Music: None
Mood: Happy
Random Note: Lollipop by Aqua was 1st in 1998 charts

You know when you need to just keep telling yourself to be happy?

I've been doing that all day now...And I'll just tell myself one more time: I'M HAPPY!

That's what it's all about. Later!

Jon

Friday Is Here

2010-04-09T08:13:00.003+08:00

Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - Glitter
Mood: Lazy & Moltivated
Random Note: The World's Tallest Horse Is On Display Today

And I'm not able to catch it! xD Yup, at the royal easter show Sydney.

(Name's Noddy by the way, or so I was made to assume.)

Spent an entire day yesterday walking around the carnival @ Olympic Park. That place is HUGE! I got photos but I will upload them at a much later time, when I've accumulated like...enough =)

Well maintained and spaced, that used to be the spot for the 2000 Olympics! And now it's just used for other random events (which I have absolutely no idea about). So I only decided to head down to the Easter Show because uncle Leong suggested both X and I go have a look see.

Basically, it feels like one of those 'fun-fair' kinda thing i.e. with rides, exhibitions, food etc. It was fun, relatively - because this was the only thing I kinda planned to do this holiday that was outside of the 'ordinary' workscope.

There were lots of horses, sheep, pigs and cows! Yup, some of you are probably thinking 'I thought you hated animal smell' ^^" Well, it was suprisingly bearable yesterday (though this does not set precedence for any future animal encounters). Somehow I got used to it for that moment haha!

Also, there were the tiny animals like dogs, ducks etc. Oh the dogs I tell you...they are SO CUTE & INTELLIGENT!!! They were demonstrating how dogs are used to keep other animals (like sheep and ducks) in check. Was really amused (closed to fascination) to see them giving instructions to the doggys, and how the doggys just had the power to get the other animals to move accordingly.

Okay, so I also got to get on some rides. It was really really interesting because this is the first time I got to take rides in a carnival (I really dun remember when the last time was, except for the time I brought that giant Tiger home, which I didn't took any rides on neither). It was fun having X along; I'm very moltivated to get him onto more rides into the foreseeable future haha~ Still, I dun have the guts to go onto the scariest looking ones though xD I'll find the courage to eventually...

There were games, and I played like 1...and felt so cheated. Cuz it gave me some really wierd token: Disney's 'CAMP ROCK' Tatoo pack.

Felt like crying and LOL-ing all at the same time =S

Ah...I'll do more details when I get to the photos~ Think it's easier to that way!

So! Today is kinda a good day, weather's fine and all. I still haven't sat down to finish my work, and that will have to happen sometime in the duration of TODAY. I keep finding myself running all over place getting chores done instead...must focus!!! Arrgh...

Well, off to find something else to do! Hope everyone's doing great~ =)

Jon

What Happens On A Random Sunday (Actually It's Easter Sunday 2010)!

2010-04-04T10:23:00.001+08:00

Music: Chrono Cross - Radical Dreamers
Mood: Great
Random Note: It's getting cold around here FINALLY!

Got up in the morning and fixed myself some breakfast and coffee. I did also catch up on much of the episodes of Chuck SE3 and the current Supernatural SE5!

I love series, they create good momentary periods for you to get your mind off stuff and just learn to live the moment you were in (even imagine how they would actually fit into your life's cliche xD).

I'm actually feeling quite down to earth today. I realised I still haven't done some of the things I've wanted to do, and shall get to it once I am finshed here.

I realised that the human mind is a very powerful tool for one thing: if you keep tellling yourself that you can do it and believe that you are actually doing something, you can get to it. It's like telling yourself a lie over and over again; eventually you'll believe that it's true and things will work out.

Feelings on the other hand, tends to take place on the side of irrationality. It drives a person to perform irrational decisions, and then end up having to face the consequences after that. I know I have a weak spot for such things: friends, family, relationships...it isn't difficult to strike me down if you know me well enough.

Therefore, I'm hoping to work towards becoming a person who sees things as they are and not having to read too much into what the heart feels. Kinda like blocking out what your heart tells you to do, and just doing the bare essentials to keep surviving. Getting too emotionally attached doesn't help (for my record) to get things going and may even end up ruining other people's goals and dreams.

I often wonder what is it that made me who I am. Where is it that I found all that energy and effort to give to people around me? As of now, I am actually proud to say that I do not know and probably do not care what the answer is anymore. At the end of the day, it is my actions that people will see and actually care about. Nothing more, nothing less. Such is the reality of the situation set out in front of me with tons of empirical evidence.

It is easier if I get to come onto a blank screen, and start typing out my mind. I do not have to care if the screen likes what I am thinking, or will my actions actually affect the screen in any other way.

The down side to actually establishing human contact with anyone in hope that they will be able to solve your problems for you, is that you do not really know what is installed for you on the other side of the conversation.

Maybe you'll feel better, maybe not. Then you start adding 'bonus counters' to what is regarded as 'level of closeness of a friend' (least I would like the analogy to work, it still sounds rather stupid typing it out xD). And your preciousness of a relationship becomes relative, summing up to the time, the number of encounters you've had, the amount of benefits you've recieved...when in actual fact, the person in front of you is just merely a friend. Nothing more, nothing less. Could have even been just a person whom happened to be there at the right time.

Oh well, I better get on with life. Later.

Jon

(Why do I always sign off with "Ah Jon"? I dun know, maybe "Ah" seemed to make me feel that I am more respected in some sense that I made it up to be? Haha, it's just Jon from now on.)

Finished A Classic

2010-04-02T16:11:00.003+08:00

Music: Ke$sha - Tick Tock
Mood: Okay, but slightly confused
Random Note: I Never Liked Sheep.

I finally finished part of the book that Sonia passed me, entitled Animal Farm.

It is a book that I recommend for anyone who dream of becoming a leader figure in any area of work into the future. The principles reflected in the text is just...astounding.

Maybe I do not read widely enough (when I do usually it's about 'non-fictatious' stuff), but the book stirred lots of my feelings towards integrity and how this is lost along the way when people rise to a position of power.

It's a book I recommend to my friends for very personal reasons:

I might have made it explicit enough that I detest it when people I care about quarrel amongst each other; sometimes (not always), I feel that it is all for the sake of power, right to be 'right' etc.

I do not know...but I'm just saying what I'm feeling right now (which isn't easy considering I'm just typing it out in words and you all lose out on my naggy voice). Maybe sometimes, I just wished people would give way to each other to realise how silly it is to stay mad at one another before it becomes too late~ all for the sake of this 'power' or 'right' or 'control'...whatever it is called xD

Being in 'power' means you have a lot in your responsibility. It is ever so easy to re-define the meaning of what is 'right' or 'wrong' simply because you are in the position to do so.

Change in human traits, when coupled with popular ideas of becoming 'rich & famous', makes us humans one of the scariest creatures ever to thread this planet...

Oh well. Gonna go play WC3 to de-stress. Later!

Ah Jon

It's Easter!

2010-04-02T11:33:00.002+08:00

Music: Ke$ha - Tick Tock
Mood: Mello, Good =)
Random Note: Notices that he has a lot of food in the apartment xD

That song is super annoying. And that's the way I like it haha~

I am getting the hang of having coffee to 'perk' up my day! It's been pretty useful on days when I just dun feel so good~ Mostly due to lack of proper sleep. Wished my mind could relax a little more sometimes. Hey, I do think better when I am not nervous or worried~

So! Mid semesters are here and I have accomplished absolutely nothing yet. No job, no driver's license, no achievements~ T.T *Sobs* Haha! Okay at least I'm really enjoying my area of study. I realised that there are no accountants within my close click, and I might actually be the first one to get somewhere with this! So yay me =)

Okay that was wierd.

Am lazing around at home today to relax. Partly cuz my head hurts and I think I'm down with a little bit of fever. But, I'm actually doing fine =) So dun panic, uncle here is still surviving (better than your expectations haha)~

We've been having pasta for our meals since the time X posted that photo of the coke we got. Suprisingly, I'm not really getting sick of it yet. Though I do wonder if there is anything wrong with taking pasta all the way...then again, my pal did it for his life @ Melbourne so...xD

I finally got my laziness to step aside and posted my photos of SG onto FB. There are still the airport and farewell ones, which I will get to once I have the chance to (probably late into the evening when the internet is on off-peak).

Been thinking much about where I'm headed in life right now...and I must admit I am not feeling confident (as most people would probably assume). There isn't really anything worth being proud of yet...and I really want to get more stuff done. Wanna be that person whom can provide for others as far as his ability can.

Of course, this is still quite a distance away.

Maybe I should start with doing the laundry first xD Almost out of stuff to wear again...

Well, gonna go get some food now. Maybe I'll update again when I get to. Later.

Ah Jon

First Day Of School

2010-03-01T18:23:00.003+08:00

Music: None
Mood: Depressed
Random Note: Moved a 35kg mass from the mall home via BUS xD

Had my first 2 hour lecture today at uni on Corporations Law. Wow it was so boring...well, maybe it was because I did not get sufficient rest.

It's going to be a pretty dry subject!

I am reminded of my purpose in life today. Need to stay really focused on school as it is the only thing that I am kinda made for at this moment in time.

Feels like the world just gone all quiet today.

Ah Jon

Getting Ready For Semester (Again)

2010-02-28T06:19:00.002+08:00

Music: Wang Lee Hom - Wo Men De Ge
Mood: Indifferent
Random Note: Australian Mangoes Are Sweet =)

Starting tomorrow, I will be back @ Uni to continue my pursuit for a degree in accounting!

Honestly, I am not really sure how I'm feeling. It feels just like yesterday that I've gone back to SG and here I am thinking of what to do already for my first semester 2010.

Seems like the past 3 months had been very eventful; Part of me feels that I have left a lot of things unsolved back at home. Anyone remotely close to me would have more or less understood my predicaments within my family and amongst my friends.

I suddenly feel like making a list of things I wished I had been able to provide a better solution to:
- My friends and their bitter state of unhappiness between one another
- Study advice to people whom may need it
- An agreement for an ongoing divorce

Then again, there's the list of things which I am grateful for being able to accomplish:
- Finally getting that present I wanted to give someone for a while already
- Being able to spend quality time with my cousins
- Having the opportunity to be a good son/nephew/grandson/godson and spend time with my family

I feel better already just typing out that last bit of the previous paragraph.

Maybe I'm just afraid of what this semester might hold for me. I know the subjects' difficulty level will be exponentially higher (got this feeling when I recieved my 3 day timetable and realised the modules I've signed up for are o.O). And I have a problem with telling people I have a problem...let alone just wanting to be honest and say what is really on my mind.

"Too used to standing in the front of the line and just fiending off any situation without looking back for any support?"

Anyhows, the apartment is really dusty! I got back and the first thing I wanted to do was to vacuum the place. Have a friend over here for a while now, because he apparently has issues with his 'designated' living home.

Sometimes I think I am too quarrelsome. Take this friend here for example: I heard of his problems and the first thing I thought of was to try help him claw back what he should be getting out of the deal. This is done without much consideration for the actual parties involved in the contract i.e. my friend and his other friend who apparently had failed to provide the lodging.

I do not know where I gather the courage to be so apprehensive about things around me from time to time. I realised that is also probably the reason why I am often trapped in my own world of self-illusioned misery. Maybe I need to learn how to be less harsh to others...?

Regardless of the circumstances, I know for sure I cannot have him around too long. We won't get along in the same house. Let's just say I know what I want for myself in this aspect xD I'll make the necessary steps if the situation calls for it.

I've uploaded ALL my SG photos onto facebook. I know many people have been wondering where they are. Well, I just need a little more time to sort them into relative folders.

Am going to try and leave things the way they are right now because I dun think I am in a good mental state to handle anything too serious. Shall try and focus a little more as the day progresses, hopefully things will be better!

Ah Jon

Okay...

2010-01-15T09:41:00.004+08:00

Music: DJ.Tiesto - Summer Queen
Mood: Amused xD
Random Note: Granado Espada Days Were Really Awesome!

Okay, so the other day, I met up with a friend who works at the national skin centre. Apparently, he does treatment for STIs at the clinic (yes he gets to see lots and lots of private stuff).

Then he was telling me, how there are absolutely disgusting people out there who fool around and still think that they have done no wrong. Well, technically, nothing is really right or wrong on the grand scale of things...but wow. There really are lots of jerks out there. The job is actually making my friend depressed, and he says he is absolutely unwilling to treat some of them.

Then our nation's focus is to promote good customer service, and the story changes. I just wish he will find a new and better job soon...can see he really is saddened by the situation there.

Coincidentally, I saw this today morning:
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20100114/tap-606-rise-stis-especially-alarming-sa-231650b.html

"An article eh?" I thought.

Then...the funny thing came:

Taken from www.yahoo.com.sg, all rights reserved by the respective corporation

"IS THAT AN INDEX FOR STIs???"

So, my day was made xD

Ah Jon

Don't Know What To Say

2010-01-03T21:47:00.002+08:00

Music: Micheal Learns To Rock - Complicated Heart
Mood: Depressed
Random Note: I'm not up for this

It's 2010!

I wonder what kind of a journey I am going to be undertaking in this upcoming year.

Right now, I'm really stuck between so many issues...issues that I do not know how to handle. I always thought I had it in me...guess not haha!

My vacation is going well I guess...Just that I haven't really had time to do a lot of things yet. Least my family is safe and healthy.

I feel like, I do not know what to do...everything just happens and sometimes I really wish I can not feel and just...leave everything behind. You know, not worry and just keep fighting?

My stronghold of beliefs is just crumbling to dust. I feel that I am a betrayer, useless being who can't handle anything. I know it doesn't sound right, but I can't help feeling this way.

Haha...it's a confusing post, think I'll just leave it behind and...try to wake up again tomorrow. Who knows, it might be a better day right?

Ah Jon

Random & Short

2009-11-12T04:12:00.003+08:00

Music: Miley Cyrus - The Climb
Mood: Awake and Good
Random Note: 'Sydney Has DIRE transport system' XD

This is the time of the year when I'm panicking and feeling the heat. Honestly, I'm gonna neet an immense amount of luck if I am going to get even remotely close to doing well. Dang the student woes! ^^"

On a side note, does any one who's reading this blog want anything specifically from Australia? I can try and bring it back when I get back home~ So please post here, e-mail me, or MSN me if you want anything in particular. I'll try to get them after my exams (or whichever more convinient applicable).

Take care for now, I'll see you all soon back in SG!

(And I look forward to seeing you again too, pal in the states! =) Obviously not missing you out on this)

Ah Jon

Past the Mid-Sems, Into The Last Lap~

2009-10-10T10:07:00.007+08:00

Music: Miley Cyrus - Let's Get Crazy <-- Good Song To Blast!
Mood: CraZie xD
Random Note: 'Right now I am studying...STEEL!'

Okay the funnies thing I've seen lately: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5F74FZfdSJY

Been missing for a while again here! I've been through...(as far as I can remember) let's see:

- shopping for lady stuff
- sick
- met a friend from SG
- recieved a new, non-dysfunctional phone (oh the joy I tell you!)
- lived through a sandstorm (it was pretty!)
- been really immersed with projects from school
- getting angry at some attitudes of fellow SGeans

The shopping part is just not for everyone to know, so I'll skip that xD

I actually fell ill for the first time through my stay here in Sydney. Think it was some chilli kebab I had, but that's not really interesting anyways. All everyone needs to know is, "I'm a survivor!" haha~

So for the first time I actually met someone I know from SG! Thanks to Xuan I got my new phone and a whole lot of other barang from my cousins! It was really great having someone you know come on down to visit you! Now I just can't wait till my family and friends actually come on down (hopefully) during my studies. It will just be swell I tell you!

I've been doing fine for my subjects mostly (except for one...which I am currently deciding not to worry about anymore). Had lots of work completed, and made some new friends along the way. Ah the beauties of being an international student: people confuse me with China students, assume me to be 'that SG guy' (as though I am that only SG person around), thinks I am wierd bcuz I can cook...hahaha! Okay, I'm actually enjoying myself quite a bit here. It's good to meet more and more people, and just being that natural me.

Okay, maybeeee not. Like BOOOMS! XDXDXDXD

Ohoh, I've been saving this pic for this! We're all restricted by technology afterall~ Check this out:

Like, owned by 2mb??? xD I was so stunned by that~

I found this new habit of talking to fellow SGeans to find out more about who are the people we are having outside of the nation. Just like to know what they are thinking. Haha! I tell you...it's really quite fun to observe their attitudes:

- there are the party people (like duh)
- the good natured ones (mild people whom are here to enjoy the experience)
- the omg ones (think they are so above everyone, absolutely proud people who wun talk to you unless you are 'somebody)
- the disgusting ones (with their work attitude and over-rated self-worth, they rule the world yeah. Like BOOMS!)

Well, just something I found interesting to do along my way!

Moving on to random things...OH! I got locked out of the house again xD Forgetting my keys is really not the best thing to happen in Sydney i.e. it really gets super cold!

Am still actually leading the same homely lifestyle here. However, I've been hooked on junk food here! Keep wanting to go to the kitchen to take potato chips and ice-cream! It's really really not that healthy haha! xD

Am really looking forward to going back home here. I hope everyone is doing well back home, and are living great! Till my next post!

Ah Jon

Mid-Semester Post (Already??)

2009-09-05T06:40:00.002+08:00

Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - Surreal
Mood: Empty
Random Note: American Dad Rox.

Hey everyone, I'm still alive and kickin' here! It's been weeks since I last posted, and I sincerely appolagize for that. I had been pretty lazy with this, and I know some of you are probably thinking 'wth' at the back of their brains XD Please dun be mad at my inconsistent updates!

Much had been going on in school. I had been dedicating my mondays and other times to being in school to do revision. I figured that it was near impossible to get proper work done at home, hence I would stay in school till late sometimes ^^" Tough semester, I dun really get the subjects so yeah, pardon my negligence on stuff~

Oh come on, you know I'll be there for anyone if they needed me right?

2 Very Important People had their birthdays on August: Jx and X!

I was so planning to fly back for jx's birthday, but ended up not doing so in order to avoid the outrage that will befall upon me if I did otherwise. Honestly, I kinda not like myself for not being able to make it but I guess I'll have to deal with that! Dang, my first boat invitation for a party and I missed it~ XD Nonetheless, I look forward to seeing my family and cousins (oh...cousins~) again soon! Really miss them very much...

X had his birthday here for the first time, and I got him a chocolate cake. Haha! Got his family to do him a birthday song, which was really funny because you see, the internet for interupted immediately when we were just about to sing! Talk about coincidence~ He still thinks that singing happy birthday song over the webcam was wierd though. Oh well!

Interesting fact to note is that I've been uncontrollably buying lots of food for the house! I think there's more than enough food to eat for at least the next 2 weeks lah~ XD Dang advertisers and their marking strategies. I'll always fall pray for discounted items!

Ohoh! We've gotten baking thingies! And I've made my first baked rice here in Australia! XD It actually turned out pretty fine, and I was so happy about it haha! Wanna try making muffins when I have the time to.

I've been thinking a lot about my couz zr, whom I'm very sure will need time and attention through this period. School is starting for her, and then there's work too. I wish I could be there to keep her company, but unfortunately can't again. Hey zr, if you are reading this, please do remember that you can always find me if you need anything! I know you might be dealing with a lot of things now, but I'm your cousin! Remember, there's always the 4 of us (your bro counts even though you argue with him 90% of the time!)~

The following weeks will be extremely rough because of the timing of exams and assignments due. I'll try to keep up with affairs, and hopefully before we know it, I will be back home =)

Ah Jon

For the Convinience Of All Readers

2009-07-25T16:39:00.004+08:00

Music: Ratatouille - End Credits
Mood: Happy
Random Note: TP stands for Toilet Paper

I was just editing my blog, and I realised that well it isn't kind of me to just shove people to go hunting for me on FB. Hence here are some of the links to my photos, and I hope they will help to make the entries a lot more interesting!

(Also it saves me bandwidth which X will probably siphon away on some random you-tube clip. Oh well, not complaining okay! XD)

For San Francisco:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=88855&id=504804213

For Vacation To USA 2009:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=88846&id=504804213

For Yosamite National Park 2009:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=88845&id=504804213

For Universal Studios 2009:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=88843&id=504804213

For My Best Gal Pal & Jeff's Wedding!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=86568&id=504804213

For Disneyland and related Pictures (Oh my...fire...workss.....)!
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=88831&id=504804213

For USYD:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=86816&id=504804213&op=6

For My Sydney Expeditions:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=86824&id=504804213&op=6

For My Home In Sydney:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=86827&id=504804213&op=6

For Me and My best Buddy:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=86825&id=504804213&op=6

Kudos and Peace out!

(Man I need to do Joshua's photos soon too~ Arrrgh!)

Ah Jon

San Francisco, All Other Wonderful Things~

2009-07-24T08:39:00.009+08:00

Music: Robbin Sparkles - Let's Go To The Mall
Mood: Great!
Random Note: Man, I Hate Washing Toilets

(I love telling people about my vacation. It's like I just keep going back to the states whenever I speak of it! I think I'm going to make that my intro-conversation this coming semester! XD

Do not get me wrong, I'm really glad to be back here in Sydney with my best bud too! ^^)

The rest of my holiday in the states was simply wonderful!I am awed by much of the american cultures (thanks to jeff & hannah), and there is just so much more to see~

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One of the highlights of this trip was about food, good traditional american food. I never had this much to eat in life thus far (I thought my farewell from SG was bad, but man I was so wrong XD)!

We had a lot of opportunities to eat out, and the newly weds really really know how to satisfy tummies! I had been to the following fast food chains on my entire trip:

- In & Out
- KFC
- Carl's Jnr (Jeff says it's called something else in other states)
- McDonalds
- Taco Bell
- Subway

The best of all of em was definitely KFC! THEY HAVE BISCUITS AND GRILLED CHICKEN AND MACRONNI & CHEESE!!! And it tasted so good, I have no idea how to put it into words! In & out comes close on second, followed by Subway (there's something about the subway there, it just tasted better!) Hey, I liked them all~ But just wanted to list down what I loved most =)

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Now, sides the fast food, Jeff also brought me to many many other wonderful dining spots! There was Korean BBQ (this is the win), pho (vietnamese noodles), baskin robbins (ICE-CREAM!), this other ICE-CREAM place (I can't recall the name!), Pizza (oh-pizza...), Boudin (clam chowder!), creepes, sushi, Golden crown (oh I loved that place~), burger joint @ SF (with really classic layout, you'll know it's just american walkin inside!) and the Irish pub which serves super fish and chips~~~wow...

So much food, all the awesome memories~ Makes me happy just thinking about it...*tears of joy*~ I'm a man of food, and I cannot say I'm really good at anything except a good tongue for identifying great tasting food!

I loved the korean bbq most! Mostly because of the environment, and on top of that, the most delicious bbq meat I had on the trip! It was just MMMM~~~ Hey, I'm not discounting any of the other experiences as being anything less memoriable, because really~ Jeff is just great with food! And he brought me around to try them all, which I am really grateful for!

On a really random but interesting side note, there's QUICKLY in the states! Can you believe that?? Haha! I thought that thing died off ages ago but apparently it lives and~ oh dear~! XD So amusing lah! Nevertheless, their milk tea tasted like bubble tea, with awesome tapioca balls XD Love those so much~

I also had the priviledge of trying out Eggos (which are waffles) and S'mores, courtesy of Jeff! He made them for me after discovering the shocking truth of "you mean you never tried them before???" Apparently, those are very american food, and they were really nice!

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We went to one of America's national parks, Yosamite! This park holds the "El Capita", which is this huuuuuuugeeee mostly granite mountain. It was beautiful~ Yosamite was also renowned for a large collection of waterfalls within a small area of landscape. I have never seen a real waterfall before in my entire life I think. But wait, that was not all! I had my first hike with my best friend, and was THIS close to the falls! Now that is awesome!

I got this thought while I was up there~ "I've got to make sure I travel while I'm still young!" It came to me when I was approaching the end of the hike trail. I realised how much I am missing out on not visiting new places, including those that really require me to be physically fit. I cannot wait till I am old and shrivelled to do that...^^"

Squirrels are really not as cute as they are potrait in stories =) Hannah was telling me how the 'stupid people' are feeding these wild animals and how that really doesn't help them. Haha! I always imagined squirrels attacking humans one day. Still, there was this squirrel that I'll always remember: so it was humping this rock on my way down, and I shouted "it looks like it is humping the rock". And this other guy whom was also staring at it shouted almost in sync the same line as I did! I mean, come on! How cool is that! XD Never underestimate the power of such moments!

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Coincidentally, my vacation was through America's independance day (it's their national day). 4th of July they called it. It is a time for people to get together and celerbrate with their families, and also a time when malls give discounts and try to clear their stock piles!

We visited 2 families on that day: one was hannah and jeff's church pastor's home, the other was hannah's cousin tiffany and brian's place! There was again, lots and lots of food! BBQ, stews, cakes...(oh cakessss...mmmm~)

I also met lots of people along the way, and it was really fun! I'm glad that I had the opportunity to be introduced to many others as "Jeff and hannah's friend" =) I mean it wouldn't had been possible if I didn't even got to know them right ^^? Man...good times~

It was a load of awesome fun with the games at tiffany's place! Gosh they had an AIR HOCKEY machine! I loved those since I was a kid. Also, I will always remember how water bomb is such an awesome tradition, together with the story of "Jeff and his wedding band"~ XD

We made it back by dark to enjoy some home-style fireworks! I cannot remember when was the last time I actually "played" with fire~ It was like, super old school! I loved the whole light up and shiny experience, and it was fun watching the neighbours set off "illegals" as well XD People in the states are so lucky~ they can play fireworks!!! And all we ever got was...oh my tian...XD

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Did I mentioned that I had been inside a Victorian Secret store? Muahahaha! XDXD

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I got to visit San Francisco's Fisherman's Warf @ Pier 39 on one occasion! The 2 hour drive down to SF was really fun, and I think it was the first time we were on a long road that I actually did not fall asleep both ways.

There was the all famous Alcatraz (also known as "The rock"), many shops, and the penny arcade! I didn't get to move around more in SF due to time constraints, but it was really fun at the bay! I tell you, the shops at the warf were so fun~

I was most intrigued by this music-box shop, and there was this little device that you could wind and make it play certain parts of songs. I loved the "it's a small world" one most. You can ask me why in person. XD

There were street performers all over the place, and it was just such a new sight for myself. I had never been to a place with that many street performers, and they actually seemed pretty professional about it. Or should I say, the performers seemed to take pride in their job, and it was just interesting you know? ^^

Now I'm wondering if they would ever get themselves a couple of samurai swords for the den...ever. XD

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I had the opportunity to play on the Wii while I was there! I tell you, you must have the hannah introduction to the Wii before you can fall in love with it! She was like "oh you MUST try this out"~

And I did. Now I'm left here on another continent feeling so jealous XD Haha! Kidding kidding, but I will work towards getting one here!

The Wii is really awesome for parties, and you can really just enjoy it as a whole group! I loved the Raving rabbits games, and I am still very awed by how the system works. Mind you that this is probably my first and best encounter with a next generation console (excluding didi's PS3, which I got to see him play MGS on)! So fun lah~~~~! Love the screaming.

I learned that the PS3 is one of the best blu-ray players in the market! Had my first blu-ray movie on this trip, and boy it was beautiful! Enchanted rox! XD More importantly, Jeff also showed me a couple of movies on this trip! Office space ("I'm gonna have to ask you to..." and "FLAIR!") and Batman the movie (the very very first one with all the "WHAM!" and "BAM!") were my favourite! I cannot stress how funny they were, and I was just laughing so hard~

In exchange, I got them 3 seasons of How I Met Your Mother (finally!) I'm glad that they liked the show!~

I also had a chance to play LAN PARTY at their place! Diablo 2 for the win, and wow...I got a chance to have LAN PARTY! LAN PARTY!!!! I missed those so much...KT & cousins! You guys are being missed as I speak of this~ Man...*a little loss for words*

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Well I guess I've pretty much summed up most of the experience for this trip! If you'll ask "that's all?", I would say "Coz not!". That's because there is really just so much more to it...things inside my heart that I do not know how to express fully~ (probably never gonna get sick of trying though XD)

I guess my best friend and her husband really taught me how to enjoy a good vacation. I felt really loved on the trip, like you know, as though I am back home with my cousins and family? Like when I was still in school with hannah and my best friends during secondary school? At some point in time, I lost that feeling...but wow...this trip really opened up my heart and made me feel so much alive again!

As I had told hannah, I look forward to meeting them again in the near future. I mean it pal...I'm gonna work hard towards that! =) Once again, thank you for the most wonderful experience ever on one of your most important occassion in life! ^^

(Please refer to FB for the photos, as Australia's internet limits my abilities to upload without consequences. I will make use of any other opportunity to upload whenever possible, so stay tuned!)

Ah Jon

Los Angeles We Went!

2009-07-18T09:01:00.012+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Life's What You Make It
Mood: Tired, Great!
Random Note: Love is rated 'E'

(I've been moving around a lot since I got back to Sydney! Pardon me for my really slow updates!)

Perling and Milo were not able to make it for the LA trip with us due to their personal schedules. I really wished they could had made it, but I couldn't have wished for anything else more on this most wonderful vacation I've ever experienced, yet!

The next morning right after the wedding, we were all shagged. Hannah & Jeff got back from the hotel and rounded everyone up, and we set out for Los Angeles together in 2 vehicles!

Now I must say, I really really really take my hat off to Jeff and Adrian, our 2 drivers for the trip. They had been most awesome in keeping us safe on the entire journey. And to have the stamina to last through that 10 hours odd drive on the freeway! I mean, it isn't an easy feat to me at all, and the best I could describe it is with a "Oooo..."! XD

The road trip was so fun! We had 2 walkie talkies on each vehicle, and there was funny stuff being communicated across most of the time (like, the best one I like: Jeff saying "This is hannah, over." XD). There were LOTS of plantations and farms along the way! I was so amazed by all that amount of crops...it is really as I would describe the meaning of spacious. You can just ROLL around for miles and miles and never reach civillization!

I had my first FAST FOOD in the states on the trip down to LA! It's called In and Out, apparently one of the most popular fast-food chains in California (and now expanding to other states). It was so MMMMMMM lah!!! ~ XD

We arrived in LA, Super8 (the place we lodged at for our stay) after the long drive.

The very next morning, the bunch of us woke up to have breakfast at this little room @ the hotel lobby. Breakfast was simple and good! We then headed down Anaheim city along Disney Way (omg they have a road named after Walt Disney!) to California Disney Land!

(I will have to discount on most of the pictures again, kindly refer to Facebook! They are very comprehensive, and you should be able to find them in order of sequence taken)

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I tell you, the walk down to Disneyland is just so magical! When I approached the park, I could hear classical disney themes being played in surround sound. It was just so...wow.

We had to make good use of the time for the first day, because Donald and Jenn were only able to be around for 2 days. We managed to cover a lot of rides (i.e. space advanture, peter pan, toy story, tower of terror etc) and it was all so awesome!

I had never been to a themepark with friends before, and never had I been so enthusiastic about going on the seemingly scarier rides XD I most probably would not had gone on anything that looked mildly thrilling prior to this trip.

And now, I would safely say I have grown to be more 'adventurous' for this aspect! ^^

Disneyland is really crowded! For some reason, it did not really affect my experience. I do not know why, but I was just moving along slowly in line with others without complains. So not me right??! XD Haha! But I guess it was cause my mind was filled with "50% awesome to be here" + "50% omg my best friend and her husband are here with me arrrrgh!"

There were lots of really wonderful things in Disneyland. I loved the way the park is designed, with all structures built to cater to themes of movies and cartoon classics. There were people in character suits (we always ran after them upon encounter so that we could take photos with em!), and even restaurants with themes! We managed to dine at one called the Blue Bayou, which was supposedly based on Pirates of the Carribean theme! Great place with ambience, service and food (did I mention that the Pirates ride was visable from beneath the bistro?)

Oh so much to tell...where do I really even start!

Okay okay, the Best part about Disneyland that I love was the FIREWORKS! I have never been a fan of fireworks in my life until this vacation (which explains why I usually do not head down to anywhere to watch em while I was in SG). I really loved the sequencing and arrangements~ watch the video if you can from my FB...it was so inspiring that I have actually included new goals in my life to fulfil:

I hope one day, that I will be able to bring people I love with me to go watch em fireworks @ Disneyland...

Now Disneyland was really just so awesome! Arrrgh T.T~ No thanks to Cher for reminding how much I was going to miss my vacation~ (haha! just really...dang!)

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We visited Hollywood, Universal Studios on the LA trip too! I can now say I had been to the land where movies are made! Now how wonderful is that!!!?

There are more of shows than rides in the themepark. There were move-themed rides such as The Mummy, Simpsons (the best motion simulation I enjoyed on the trip), Jurassic Park and many many others, but I would give the distinctions to the shows!

Apart from the Simpsons ride (it was at KRUSTYLAND OM-TIAN!), I loved the tour around the studios most for this park! I tell you, it was really so so so fun seeing how special effects worked on site, and how some of the scenes were actual filming locations for shows I had watched! I really do not know how to describe how wonderful it felt seeing something that was on TV and actually being at that exact same area~

The park is located on highlands, and the view is simply stunning from some points in the park! I did not get to picture most of it because we were on a tight schedule (only one day at Universal), but I still remember the sights well!

...OH YAH!

SPONGEBOB WAS THERE!!!! T.T~~ <-- Tears of joy~~

Jeff and Hannah have officially tagged me with a Spongebob dog-tag! Man I'm so wearing that to school~ =D

I had my first Jamba Juice while @ Universal! Adrian treated me to one, and man it was delicious! I realised that Adrian was a sushi chef on this occasion, and from that very point forth "anything that Adrian says is nice must try!" ^^ A chef on my trip with me man...how cool is that!

I also saw the first and only Coffee Bean in the states! It was sitting along side with all the other bistros and cafes on the path down to the themepark. Man I miss the coffee bean in SG (although I must say, Australia really really has much much better coffee! More posts to come, soon soon~)

Red carpet, evening sky and giant Universal logo~ those were the last memories I had in my head before we all left for dinner.

I had my first mexican meal ever with the bunch at this mexican restaurant! Apparently, tacos and quesadilieas (or however that was spelt XD) are mexican food! Haha! Never knew about that until then.

The last thing I recalled for the evening was playing my first ever WARCRAFT 3 game at Super8. I would surrender all my prior internet experiences for this; never in my life had I played an online game that responded immediately when I clicked on a command. It was simply...amazing. No lags, pages load immediately...it was like a dream come true (so many dreams can come true in one day haha). I still remembered how Steph was so amused at how amused I was seeing no lag on screen XD

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We did Seaworld on one of the days on the trip too! It was located at San Diego, and the weather was milder for that day! I was never a personal fan of marine life, so I had to admit that I was not really keen initially. Then, I thought to myself "what kind of a vacation would this be if I was not going to enjoy it and try new things?"

And it most certainly was fun! There was rides, but we did not get on any of them because the shows seemed more worth the while. Also, we were once again short on time due to a schedule to return to Disney for some final events!

What I liked more about seaworld was the otters and sea-lions! They were really cute and made funny noises. XD I was also very amused at how they reacted to food when it was feeding time. There was this one sea-lion that just did not budge, and the keeper had to toss fishes for it to catch with its mouth. It was really adorable!

Oh there was also the sea-lion show with the hillarious host! He imitated all the different characters from different popular shows and movies~ I almost died laughing when he imitated "You've got the BEST ~~~~~ OF BOTH WORLDS! CHILL IT OUT TAKE IT SLOW, THEN YOU ROCK OUT THE SHOW~~~~" XDXDXD So funny lah!

Serena was so amused with horses in Seaworld XD Till this very day, I am still so tickled and how she loved the horses most @ SEAWORLD. Just read it a few times and you'll be smiling like I am now too. XD

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I had 2 subways while I was at LA! I tell you their cheese super super rox! They have this super delicious cheddar cheese which totally makes the sub unhealthy and delicious with any topping!

Let's see...what other fun fun things I can recall~

OH! I never got to take this photos with the street crossing button! I tell you, it was love at first sight. I pressed it's button and it made a beep sound. And it does that every single time! Oh my...OOOOOOHHH my...can you just imagine how amused I was at the side of the road just pressing it and listening to it go "beep"? XD Good for you if you could, haha!

We were in the same state as Micheal Jackson when he passed on. Thus, my best friend and husband will forever be sharing their wedding anivasaries with the king of pop's~ Cool! =)

All of us on the same vehicle had our first experience with surfing the internet on the highway! Apparently Jeff's phone was able to serve as a device to broadcast like a router, and I decided that I just had to experience internet on the highway! Like, really, how much more awesome can my internet experiences get!? XD

I really enjoyed that short week at Los Angeles! It was really so cool, getting to know all of the friends in the newly wed's lives, and just having fun together as young people!

Man I miss Hannah and Jeff so much right now...

(This post may be updated indefinitely, depending on the amount of time I have at hand to get things done! Appolagies for any loose ends~)

My Best Friend's Wedding~

2009-07-18T08:10:00.007+08:00

Music: Micheal Jackson - Beat It
Mood: Tired & Good!
Random Note: I'm Not A Party Animal XD

(Morning Peeps! I'm back in Sydney~! Now to get back to my updates!)

As much as I would have really wanted to make it for the planning and all, I was not able to due to the exams T.T But I must say, this wedding had been most awesome for the youngest couple whom I actually know personally!

I arrived at Sacramento Airport not knowing what to do ^^" Haha! That was cuz well, everything was so last minute plan, we did not have much time to communicate the arrangements. Apparently my mobile company said I would get coverage when I reach the States...well, I did not get any.

So I wandered around a little, while trying to find some way to contact Perlin / Milo. Just as I was about to give up, I heard someone from a distance: "Chun fong chun fong! I see him come~"

I saw 2 very warm faces: PERLIN + JONATHAN! XD They were the first people I met @ the states~

Meet the duo: JONATHAN IS A CHEMICAL ENGINEER TOO! Woohoo!

And my dear senior whom I had not seen in eons~

There is a lot of land in the states!!! I tell you, through that short domestic flight and drive down to the ceremony, I was just so stunned at the number of miles whereby land just continues for! Perlin was telling me how I can see the road meet the horizon and I was like "Oh boy." XD

They drove me down to the wedding ceremony, where photo taking was still taking place around the Congress Library in downtown Sacramento. That was where I first saw the lovely couple and a number of new and old faces~

(Due to the Super Disgusting Australian Internet Arrangements, I have to kindly ask viewers of my blog to refer to Facebook for my pictures! On the upside, you guys get to browse around for a more comprehensive collection of the photos from over at least 8 different cameras! =D)

I saw April, whom I was really suprised by~ Apparently, she was only able to make it on a very last minute note. Well, it was fun seeing her again, and she still laughs in a way similar to mine ^^

I saw Serena, whom I never spoke to this much until this entire trip (more details will roll in as I post)! Now she is definitely one amazing girl, and I am really glad to have actually made a new good friend!

Perlin still looks the same XDXDXD But she certainly behaves a lot more differently! I feel that she had grown to be a lot more mature since the last I heard from her~ Now that she's gotten an American Husband and is living the 'freedom' life, I can see her a lot happier from many many aspects!

Milo was there too for the wedding! She made some arrangements to come over for Hannah's wedding, and had to leave the next morning to return to work at another state. I simply still admire her so very much~ She is one heck of a tough woman, and is always as well presented and poised for any occassion. *Salutes Ms Lim* XD I really hope in the near future, I will be able to keep in touch with her and that she will be enjoying life as well as she could~

Okay enough about people~ There was also Suzie, Tracy, Adrian, Simone and a whole lot of other people that would be too much to type for a short entry! They were all cool in many many ways, and I hope that in time to come I will still be in touch with em all~

We then headed off for the dinner ceremony~ There were like 200 over guests at the restaurant, and I was actually kinda shocked to witness the attendence XD I learned later on that there were relatives, family members and people from church and work~

Random thoughts were racing through my mind i.e. oh dear am I going to make it for an angmoh wedding, was I dressed properly enough etc~ Haha! I guess I was really just so nervous seeing so many strangers, all attending what is going to be the biggest event of my best pal's life~ (yet)!

We had a good spread of chinese food for the evening, which was similar to what the chinese in SG usually do. It was good, and the table consisted of Jeff and Hannah's friends from all over the place. Donald and Jenn were cool, and there was also Isacc and the few of us from SG. Again, please refer to FB for the snaps on that evening~

We sang "Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xing" for the newly weds, and that was actually pretty cool! I think it is really amazing if one can get friends to sing at a wedding event. It is not something that anyone can really appreciate, but only those of us whom had the same teenage life as a choir member will understand~ =)

There was the ending dance and relax time, where I was forced to dance on the floor (courtesy of Suzie, whom really has that sporty character inside the motherly heart of hers XD)! It was all good, and I really cannot describe how thrilled I was that evening over the whole thing~

Wedding of my best friend, States, Vacation...It was all happening.

Finally, A Vacation Post!

2009-07-10T10:49:00.007+08:00

Music: Jon McLaughlin - So Close
Mood: Great!
Random Note: I am attracted to beeping buttons

I've finally gathered some discipline to sit down and do some posting! This will be the first post since my departure from Sydney! I hope everyone is doing fine ^^

(Wow...as I was typing, I realised how much I have not used my mind for a while. Having trouble churning out words haha!)

It's really hot here in sunny California =) Now when I say hot, I really mean HOT XD Kinda like an oven if you get what I mean.

It's my third week in the states, and I must say this is probably one of the most relaxed moments of my life ;) I'll wrap up some thoughts and then try to do some coverage on the events here. It will take a while before everything could be done, so bear with me for a while aight?

All that work to get myself to say yes to the trip was definitely worth the while. Honestly, I was really stressed out over things. Well, the weather in Sydney was really cold and I couldn't concentrate. I was a nervous about the whole wedding thing. I could not get my mind down to work, and it really was just all inside my head, constantly pricking my senses.

As a result, I did not perform well in my finals (thank goodness my results weren't just pass)...I was contemplating whether or not to be upset when I actually saw them. I guess it could have been much worse. I know I can do better, and I will work even harder this semester. Hey, make use of the opportunities given to me right? I only hope my family will not be upset at my scores...

I remembered leaving for this vacation feeling so down. I never told anyone about it, but it was like a constant state of misery. Well, I'm glad that a lot of the negative feeling is gone! =) Life is full of ups and downs.

So let's start with the day I set out! The feeling of travelling alone by myself kinda rox! XD I mean, there is no rush, no need to worry, just pure sights and fun. I remembered roaming around the Sydney airport and thinking 'wow, this is so oooo~'. Haha!

The flight to San Francisco was really tiring. I do not really enjoy plane rides (unless the plane has entertainment provided like SQ's A380s), but I must say United Airlines was pretty okay! In terms of service and cabin conditions, I thought it was pretty good. I got to sit beside 2 american teens, both female. One took my pillow and the other took me blanket. Haha~ this story is definitely more interesting if I could tell in person =)

SFO Airport

The plane to SFO~

Check out the angmohs XD

The view from SFO to Sacramento~!!! Check out the mini squares of lands!

And hence, my vacation began! (Next post, wedding stuff!)

Ah Jon

Cannot Focus

2009-06-11T18:23:00.002+08:00

Music: Some random loud base in the hall...
Mood: Poor
Random Note: Game Theories.

It's exactly 5 more days till my first paper. I'm here to do a lil'typing cuz I cannot get myself to sit down just yet to do work.

I am really excited to go for my best gal pal's wedding soon! Seriously, I am so looking forward to it. It is going to be a good time to catch up with her, and give myself space to think and relax.

As such, I probably will not be avaliable online as often after the 20th of June. I will not return until the 17th of July.

I had my first birthday in Sydney! It will be one of the most memoriable ones for as long as I live I guess (for all reasons I can think of). X and Kenn celerbrated for me with cakes and a meal =) It was really good (and ultimately unhealthy). Well, the only other person who had ever made me a cake is the person whom I'm going to go attend a wedding for haha!

Strange thing. Jx and I share this common thing for cakes and birthdays. It is really quite interesting...we feel that birthdays are not birthdays without cakes, or at least I think this way.

Will post pictures at a later time when I do some uploading again.

I am feeling a little sick in the throat, but life is pretty much good here. Weather is getting really COLD, but I guess I'll live.

Okay, enough ranting. Oh sweet blog...*hugs*...how I really needed you for a pressure relief.

Ah Jon

No Updates Yet XD

2009-06-09T06:56:00.002+08:00

Music: Michael Giacchino - End Credits (Ratatouille)
Mood: Quiet
Random Note: Jelly Fish Are Taking Over The Oceans!

Kinda Disgusting.

Lolx! Okay, I have not done any decent updates yet (due to circumstances beyond my control), but I still have a things I want to write. It will have to wait till the 11th of the month =)

The holidays have officially begun, and I am trying hard to cramp information into my brain for the upcoming exams. It will be tough...and my mind is not exactly in the right places. Am trying my best...really, I am.

(It is okay though to go ahead and criticize me for not.)

I had 2 super strange dreams last night! It's really...L.O.L. Honestly, it is kinda fun writing down all my funny dreams ^^ Kinda enjoy it~

First one was related to me and a job as a pimp! WTH right??? I dreamt that I was a pimp and one of my customers refused to pay me. Then my mum was there when we were eating dinner at a coffeeshop...and the person was really scary! Was like, all fierce but quiet kind. Goodness...talk about wild dreams...seriously, I have no idea why I got this one in my head (woke up feeling o.o)~

Then when I went back to sleep, i dreamed that I was with my army friends and we were planning to have dinner together. Apparently we were in the middle of a ghost haunting setting, whereby there was this female ghost trying to kill us. There was lot of screaming and people were killed. And I died too in the end...at least i think i did. The last scene was me swimming with another person towards land when the female ghost attacked. It ended with me entering a room where we all were able to sit down and have dinner together...

So strange right??? XD

Still, it is killing my rest time. I cannot go into sweet slumber...zzz. Oh well, I'm going to get back to my work now, and I hope everyone is doing as awesome as they can be! Till next time~

Ah Jon

What A Nightmare~

2009-06-02T06:04:00.002+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Best of Both Worlds
Mood: Kinda mixture of shocked and frightened
Random Note: I'm feeling the love =)

I just woke up in a jump and it was so scary! I had to come to the computer to type this down like almost immediately, possibly one of the most...interesting nightmares I've ever got.

I dreamed that I was part of this group of 30 elite spies with super natural abilities. And it was all like, so real! We busted leet crimes together in small groups and we were happy agents.

Then my partner was about to get married and I was assigned to get some mission done (I can't remember the exact specifics). 1/2 way along my mission, I was informed by another agent that I trust that there was this message that needed to be delieved to my partner.

So, I set out for the hunt to find my partner, whom I soon realised was nowhere to be found. I got worried and made that my mission (it was like a game + movie kind of thing, where I can choose my paths). Wow...I was climbing carparks, playing spy and doing all those really secret mission stuffs! Almost died a few times, but managed to escape XD I still remember i could jump really high in this nightmare, so fun lah!

The reason it was considered a nightmare was because I could not find my partner. Though it was just an illusion, I felt the anxious! And there seems to be this bond that we supposedly share as secret agents (almost as though we were really friends). The vividness of the feeling still lingers on as I type this (creepy!).

Then I realised that my partner was going to miss his wedding if I do not find him soom. I panicked and started to get really scared, as though I knew I was never going to find him. I contacted the agents again and nobody wanted to help me...as though I was really alone now for the rest of the game. It was really so real, it was not funny anymore.

Eventually I never got to find my partner...and I lost in this so called "scene".

Woke up feeling so confused! The reason why this nightmare was so scary was because I felt like panic, fear, betrayal and loneliness all together in that 7 hours of sleep. Usually I would not be able to remember the feelings involved, except for the rush of excitement and fun that involves me doing really ridiculous things. This was definitely not any ordinary adventure dream...XD

Well, I begun thinking about why it should affect me on any note (since my life is really set in a pretty good place now). I realised that the emotions felt were genuinely things that I was afraid of in real life. The fear of losing loved ones, not being able to help them, making wrong decisions that could destroy them indirectly, being alone...

It sure does not help when a nightmare becomes almost too vivid for comfort! XD Well...I'll go calm myself down now for a while, get back in the mood and do some work before headed off to school.

I will update again soon about events happening around here soon! So till then, hope everyone is doing awesome! =)

Ah Jon

Wow.

2009-05-26T16:20:00.001+08:00

Music: None ATM
Mood: Okay
Random Note: I think I am getting addicted to chocolates.

I'm suppose to be doing my work now but I came across this interesting survey:
http://au.biz.yahoo.com/090526/2/26jkv.html

It's good to know the land of my origin and the land of my current residence are doing well! =)

Ah Jon

Alone At Home!

2009-05-25T16:07:00.002+08:00

Music: Chrono Cross - Radical Dreamers
Mood: Okay
Random Note: I love Yahoo.Au Sometimes For Random Stuff!

Here's something I found interesting:
http://au.lifestyle.yahoo.com/b/mens-health/214/great-sex-advicesexual-myths/

Well that means that scene from White Chicks with the black guy...IS STILL AWESOMELY FUNNY! XD Gotta love that show.

Well! This will be the last hectic week for me before I do revision for my finals. The semester has gone fairly well, and my grades are (hopefully) ok. Today, finally, I say bye bye Business Information Systems Module!!!

What...? This module brought me so much trouble and sorrow lah~ I'm just glad that it has ended (in a way, though there's still a presentation but I do not really care about it so yeah). However, I do admit that I kinda enjoyed the topics covered in the subject. It is very broad base, and it has very important concepts that I personally agree with in terms of importance. So much for INFS, WOOHOO!

I finished a whole bar of Cadbury Chocolate Hazlenut Flavour yesterday. As I was consuming that delicious commodity, I read the contents and it says there were approximately 5 servings in that bar. XD Wow...many of you are probably shocked and laughing at me while reading this ^^" Hey...I eat when I'm stress. Still...it is interesting to note how 4 bars of Ritter Sports Chocolate back in sg could last me for 6 months! Haha!

I'm going to head off to complete my assignments, and hopefully things will get better soon. My mind is technically awake almost 24 hours through the day, and it kinda sucks. Afterall, I do enjoy sleeping a lot now don't I XD?

Ah Jon

Feeling Hopeless

2009-05-22T07:54:00.003+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Best Of Both Worlds
Mood: Very Upset
Random Note: Voice Recognition Programs Are Kinda Funky

I woke up to realise to my horrendeous horror that they have cancelled my credit values in my mobile phone; reason being I missed my top-up date. Am so terribly pissed...

I am feeling so very lost right now. I am sick of myself always seeking for some attention, always thinking I have the been the best of a friend. The image I am seeing today is that I am a horrible person and nobody really cares about me. Perhaps I deserve this for everything that I have done...

Cuz many people will beg to differ, but I cannot help feeling this way for so many reasons I cannot disclose online. I just want to rot in a corner of the universe and not be laughed at right now.

Ah Jon

Missing Home~

2009-05-20T16:03:00.008+08:00

Music: Tsuyoshi Sekito - Far Into The Sky (Brave Fencer Musashi OST)
Mood: Hungry & Happy
Random Note: Muzzle your inner Eeyore!

Hahaha! Check out this link: http://advice.yahoo.eharmony.com.au/article/breakup-survival-kit.html?cid=53151&pid=1020

Beautiful morning! Though I'm horrendeously tired, I've made myself a tuna sandwich and a cup of coffee. Now before I head off to do my weakest subject~ I thought I should do one entry first =)

Well, it's been a while since I updated! 2 very hectic weeks have passed, and I am so going to have to last another 2 more before all my assignments are up for grading. Sure hope it will pass quickly...and well of course!

Good things have happened over the past weeks, so let's see what I can recall over here~

X and I went to try out the new japanese restaurant near our place that opened beginning of the month! The place is quite nicely spaced and furbished, though there really wasn't much of a selection (in contrast to SG). We decided to try it out because well, we just wanted to XD (Honestly its cuz we were really stressed out and in a horrible mood, but I do not think anyone is really keen so haha~)

Looks pretty presentable right!? Haha! Well, it was pretty good too! Though the sushi was not really l33t, the soup udon was great! And X have learned to take sashimi, which is something that I would have went "ahahaha! I knew you would eventually" but decided not to lolx!

I always like to think whenever people follow me around to eat, they will eventually learn to like what I prefer too! (Hey, how many of you have accquired better tastebuds through knowing me pls ^^)

I have gotten pretty sick of cooking the same stuff over and over again. Though X does not really provide constructive feedback, I could no longer stand preparing the same stuff on weekly basis (he always says "it's goo00oo0d!"...what kind of feedback is that?! XD).

Apart from the honey and soy marinade (which I still totally adore), I went shopping one day and decided to try out a new spice from the shelve: PORTUGESE CHICKEN SEASONING. And it was transformed into the following:

It has got this spicy and sour taste, which makes it kinda tangy =) Great seasoning to try out if you asked me~ Well at least it was something good to my tastebuds! MMMMmmmm~ XD

Well, I just love food! Haha!

This weekend hopefully we will clean up our apartment, and then I'll get to take pictures and post em for people to see! It is kind of in a mess but I really do not have the time and moltivation just yet to start cleaning~ Soon though!

Ohoh, There was this really bad day I had with Sydney Buses! It was like, the first time I really could not stand the bus service! Firstly, the bus broke down on the way to school when I really needed to be on time! $@%&#&$ Then the people on the bus were kinda noisy and annoying. Then there was this asian guy whom stood beside me and blocked the way to the exit!!! How's that annoying...? Well everytime someone wanted to get off, I had to step off the bus to let them just because the person blocking did not want to move! And he was sweaty and all, so disguesting lah! Haha! He eventually got off the same stop as me, and he RAN like past me, with a sort of like impatient gesture! I was like, really, "WTH". Sometimes, I do not understand how people can achieve in academics and be so inconsiderate in society. Then again, maybe he is still learning...oh well.

Haha! Moving on~ Okay, on the inside, I really really miss my friends and family very badly. Through the course of the week, I had short conversations with my best pal and she seemed so busy with school, so we had to postpone our chat (obviously I do not mind)! I also got to talk to Cherie (yes now I know she loves me too), and I realised that I have missed out much on her life too...she seemed really different in terms of her personality, like all that relationship thing has made her much less cynical (just a preliminary impression I got, nothing bad or personal here!).

I also know that a certain 2 of my cousins are on good terms again, and you 2 have no idea how much more relieved just hearing that...it's one of those things that is constantly making me worried, and now that it is gone, I am just so glad! (would give you all a hug if I could, but I can't...again...)

I really do not want to miss out so much on my friends' lives...if given a choice, I will want to just be part of all the chapters they want me to be in. Dam the principles of economics...~ (mainly scarcity XD) I just want to be good at the things that matter to me, but sometimes I cannot help but feel that I am not able to be the best. You guys ever felt like that?

I still remmember jx told me something interesting: "if you want to emo, store and wait till the end of the semester". It just really sucks to know that school pressure just suppresses all emotions that matter sometimes. I kinda understand the significance of that statement now, and I thank her for that piece of advice =)

Something interesting about myself: I got back one of my test results and it was way better that what I had expected. I remembered that I was so happy when I saw those scores online, then it was end of tutorial and I left for home (rainy day it was too zzzz). My happiness lasted all the way to railway square only though (the terminal that I take bus home from).

It was then I realized that I do not allow myself to be really happy for my own achievements most of the time. I tend to just shove the good things I've done aside, and focus on making the bad ones more outstanding. In a way, I recognise that I could improve on what I am not doing well, but I also know that I am discounting all that I could possibly be good for...it is just something interesting to myself. I guess I still have not learned to be confident in what I consider most important aspects of my life.

Well, the week still goes on, and I'll be working hard on my end. Hopefully, things will be better at the end of this semester! I have much to look forward to I think =) X and I want to start a facebook group, but we will wait till both of us agree on the theme first...XD He has this really annoying one about 'Singapore Noodles', and I am still contemplating~ Primarily, I want to be updating that group with all that I can get from this wonderful SYD experience!

Well, till next time~ Everyone take good care till then!

(I will try to be more faithful in updating)

Ah Jon

The Pressue Is On

2009-05-10T12:36:00.003+08:00

Music: Tommy Heavenly6 - Hey My Friend
Mood: Good
Random Note: I Love Honey & Soy Marinade!

A week has passed again! This only means I'm much closer to deadlines for all my assignments =( Hence the pressure is really building up now~ I just want to get through this semester!

So much work arrgh!

Well, it's been a pretty uneventful week because both x and I are basically just rushing to complete our assignments. I haven't had much time to even think about how I want to spend my week. It really is just work work work...

Sometimes I even feel that I am not good enough for academics. Haha! Well I just have that thought at the back of my head. The thing is I know that I ain't the smartest person around...

Need to work harder!

Well I hope everyone is going around having a good time today cuz it's mother's day! =) Here's a lovely wish to all mothers out there (or future mothers) for the noble cause of bringing us to life!

Afterall, this is the first year I ain't celebrating with my own family.

I've got to make a quick exit again because I want to finish up some of my project stuff before school begins again tml. Hope everyone's doing well!

Ah Jon

Mario & The Candy Monster!!!

2009-05-01T05:12:00.002+08:00

Music: None
Mood: Wierd, Awake
Random Note: It takes 3 mins for teabag in hot water before ready.

Just woke up a few moments ago. Okay I just had one of those really awesome dreams that serve absolutely no purpose.

I dreamt that I was Mario in Sonic's world. And I was collecting rings and springing around in this maze. Then I encounter the big bad boss whom does this jackpot thing and throws candy at me all the time.

Unfortunately, I was awakened by my alarm clock before I could defeat the beast! Oh well~ Back to the books XD

Ah Jon

Hanging By The Edge

2009-04-30T07:55:00.003+08:00

Music: Granado Espada - Rosa Rosado
Mood: Good
Random Note: Must Work Harder *sizzles the brain*

Ah, appolagies for no updates on last week! Apparently, I have been pretty much pinned down by school work. Like I know that is not really the best excuse, but I guess my choice over resting was kinda the reason why I was not online to post.

Am actually a little more relaxed today, so that's a good start (it's pouring outside!)

Many many things I have not updated about~ So let me start recalling there:

It has been a very rough week since my last update. Apparently all the topics in school are getting exponentially hard and I really do not know how I am going to cope. What made this more demoralising was that one of my test results was really bad, which led to a series of self-doubts (ongoing process).

I really wish I will be able to bring something good back home and make this certificate worth something to all their investments on me. I know it really sounds silly, having to fulfil 'invisible' expectations. Looking at it from my perspective, I want to get to the whole 'able to take care of everyone' status.

And it does help to know that X is also pacing up on his efforts =) Bottomline, it is good to have someone on the same side as of struggles. Last week we set to head down to school to do revision over the weekends. However~ XD It wasn't really prouctive because the venues were closed on both occasions and the weather is increasingly close lately.

Went down to the guitar shop over the weekends and X was kinda happy to finally lay his hands on one of those fiddley thingies. Of course now he is stuck with whether or not to spend on the instrument that he supposedly 'relaxes' on. Least I think I've done my part as far as I can at this moment in life.

Will be headed down to school again this weekend! And this time it must be awesome because I so do wanna get work done. I'll try to take more pictures within the school compound then.

Side note: Oh my goodness I need to survive winter! The weather has taken a real change for the colder, and it is difficult to concentrate with the brrrrrrrrgh cold temperature sometimes XD

I really hope things are going on fine between jx and her stuffs. Apparently there was this huge hiccup between her and a friend. Unfortunately, I am not @ home to help out the way I usually do, but I believe that she will be able to make it as time goes by. There are things that I have learned about her relationship, and I know that now is not the best time to really say certain things.

Let's just put it this way: I do not think my cousin (nor anyone really for the matter) deserves anything less than what is good in life. Sometimes there might be things that we want badly. And may there seem to be the perfect solution in front of us, but that might not really be the case, you know? Like maybe I shouldn't be too skeptical for my own good, but I seldom make any decisions without realising facts now...do I?

I miss everyone so badly...like over the week I got to saw all 3 of my cousin's + mh's faces! Was really so happy to see that everyone is healthy and doing well (by well I mean fighting the battles of life on a daily basis XD). Really really made my day~ I also got to see my aunt, whom apparently made me really really miss them. I cannot stress that I have the best relatives possible to my knowledge...they care for each other and that is all that really matters. I am glad to be who I am because of what they have taught me.

Then I got my sister and Jeremy telling me to take care of myself =) Which I definitely will, so do not worry about me guys...~

I have this big economics quiz coming up on friday so I shall not stay too long here. Till next time! Hope everyone is doing better than myself =)

Ah Jon

And One Final Note To End The Holidays~

2009-04-19T20:09:00.002+08:00

Music: (Random Track That I Cannot Name + Too Lazy To Check)
Mood: Exhausted~
Random Note: I Need To Learn More Things To Cook!

It has been a really rushed day. For one thing, I was trying to cramp all my notes to be completed before the semester continued, so it was like 8 hours of consecutive writing until my brain feels like it has been friend o.O!

I am kinda hyped that school is starting again tomorrow. I really want to get this semester done, so that many doubts can be cleared (one of the more pressing ones being when my exams will be held).

So much work! Dang I should stop being so last minute in my work! Haha, a funny perspective here is that X thinks that I am more hardworking but the turth is that I really am not there yet. It is some kind of 'issue' that I want him to be with me on, and not feel that I am ahead of stuff ya know?

I'll resume doing better updates soon, my mind really needs a break XD *goes invade ying xiang's room*

Ah Jon

The University Village!

2009-04-19T19:38:00.005+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Life's What You Make It
Mood: Exhausted
Random Note: I get very hungry when I use my mental energies.

We visited Kenn over the weekend to his place! Remember the friend whom I mentioned made us a menu for lunch? Haha! Well, we headed down to his place and here is what school accomodation looks like!

Haha! Well, I honestly have to give the school accomodation 2 thumbs up! I mean it is awesome right!?? Fully equiped, cosy little place with all the privacy you need! And it is close to school too~!

That also means you are living within walking distance to the city, which pwns all other factors!

If I so can afford it...~ and I know that X really loves it there. Maybe in the future...

By the way, Jx gave me this to watch! Omg it was so funny!!! XDXD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fhb89V43KWc

Share the joy yeah! PWNED!

Ah Jon

My Life Thus Far!

2009-04-19T19:04:00.007+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Best Of Both Worlds
Mood: Exhausted
Random Note: YOU CANNOT MICROWAVE TOMATOES!

(I totally learned that yesterday. Finally, like the most horrible creation yet XD)

Okay I still have not taken much photos. I will so go down to school to take more shots of the surroundings (soon!).

I shall try to display my living area + life at apartment =)

My surroundings are somewhat like this:

Dam I am so bad with HTML! But yea, here is how the surroundings of my place looked like. There are more pictures and I will add them in in future posts (let me get my photography skills up a little first)

Well, here are some of the really random photos I snapped when I was making my meals. Of course there was the part about how I really just wanted to take photos with my new camera haha!

Then there is the tragic case of my first 2 rockmelons~ (they only cost 2 dollars each)!!!

Guess what happened to them? They got too ripe and there were cockroaches feasting on them! Such a pity + it was so heavy to carry them by hand home!!! Imagine the beginning of my beautiful morning to the sight of that XD You do remember my post on how mad I was a while back about how there were these pests crawling around the house yea haha!

(Somewhat I was reminded of how Jx's party made me carry 3 whole watermelons by hand to her place XD Wow, oh WOW. Haha!)

Well, that is about all for some small shots I took over time since I got my camera hee! I'll start another post for more photos (so difficult to plan the space) ^^

Ah Jon

Bad Post (Previously)

2009-04-17T20:18:00.002+08:00

Music: Tokyo Towers OST - Tsubomi
Mood: Still quiet
Random Note: I must be so bored to do 2 updates in 1 day! XD

Well, I have reserved my energies for tomorrow and sunday to be for more serious stuff. Hence, I figured that I have to do some 'closure' tonite with regards to my 'disconnection'.

(No I will not be short-changing my friends of good posts that I promised ^^ I will do them over the weekend with some photos)

I consumed a large amount of time (like a whole 24 hours in total) completing 2 series of shows this week.

First was Chuck, a story about a man whom had all the government secrets stuck inside his head and he was protected by 2 bodyguards. The show eventually developed into Chuck falling in love with 1 of his security guys called Sarah...and if you want to know more go watch the show! ;) It's pretty cliche, but there are very awesome elements in the show.

I mean by now most of my friends probably know what I look for in shows. I will give Kt and X the awards for providing me with shows that I like =)

I also catched Kyle XY, which was the second show that made up the 24 hours cumulative 'LCD screen' time XD

Bottomline, I really just wanted to experience what it was like to just enjoy some personal time. Not like the kind anyone might think of, but the kind that I hope to enjoy without the comfort of people close to me.

Most of my time was spent with people I care so much about in my life. I look back and everyone I ever cared about was with me for moments all over the place.

And with that comes regret, for not being able to make it for the ones they wanted me to be there for. I wished my appolagies were accepted although I cannot forget what my best friend once told me: you can never really forgive a person because you will always remember the moment (it sounds bitter, but I guess I have not found the way around this phrase).

I wanted to make it out on my own on this chapter of my life. Okay not as in without any support, but I want to not be so reliant on others. I noticed that X always went away to his computer whenever and whatever, and I figured that maybe that was a good starting point for me. He knew how to be by himself, and you know, be the 'man' (at least that is the stereotype for my species' gender).

I am such a whimp sometimes, always talking to others about my emotions and how I feel about stuffs. My petty complains, over-emphasis on relationships and all that very so-called 'uncle' stuff...made me a pretty different person from the usual crowd now yea?

Sometimes, I really do not know if it was good that I was the way I am. So much could have been different for everyone if I had been just a little different (like, less the emotions and all that...)

I do not know why I am allowing myself to rant on so far tonite. Well, it is time to cap the bottle and move on to lala-land now. I'll be fine! See you guys around in the morning!

Ah Jon

Disconnected

2009-04-17T17:54:00.005+08:00

Music: None
Mood: Quiet
Random Note: Cold Night

Before I return to my show, I just want to jog down this moment:

Ever get the feeling that you are so out of touch with things and all around you and your life?

I am feeling so disconnected from the world right now. I want to talk but I feel that there is just no one I can turn to. I know that is not true but sometimes, the mind just wanders to less happy places and I just find myself struggling to keep my head afloat.

Guess that kinda explains itself.

Till next time~!

Ah Jon

(I'll do better updates before the week ends, hopefully ^^)

First Day Of The Week!

2009-04-13T07:35:00.002+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Best Of Both Worlds
Mood: Awake, Good
Random Note: "GOOD NEWS EVERYONE!" XD

It is the first day of THE holidays, and I am feeling extra good (though it really was not such a great night of rest). Well, I will be off for a run real soon, and I just thought I should come on in and drop a few momentoes =)

I tell you, my keyboard died for the 3rd time! This is so depressing (well, it is) because it is the same problem as what I got for the past 2 times! Like honestly man, what is the manufacturing quality control for this product really? People paid like 100 bucks for this piece of equipment! For the peeps whom are not fimiliar with the market rates, you can get a keyboard for below 20 bucks with 2 years warrenty.

Most importantly, I really loved this keyboard so much because it was a special gift from my best bud on my 20th birthday T.T I remembered how happy I actually was when I recieved it (and also because I usually do not try to guess what I am getting for presents XD)

Okay call me silly for placing such weight on objects again...(but hey, a man does gets to lament on his blog yeah?) Moving forward, it looks like I need to cheat my mind to buy myself a new keyboard. Now that could take a while, haha!

X and I will be headed down to Kenn's for lunch later! I'll see if I can gather pictures along the way!

I spend my last entire day watching finish season 2 of CHUCK! It is really quite an awesome show!!! I mean X thinks it lacks substance and follows a cliche storyline, and I agree with it. Well, the thing is I really like shows that remind me of what I appreciate and believe in. You know, like love and friendship etc etc? I just think it is a great show as it is, no strings attached! (Dang them great scriptwriters!)

Oh what a lazy and unproductive day! XD

Well, I'll need to make a move soon because it is almost 10. Weather is mild today, pretty much shady. I will try to make more interesting updates during the week. There is a project meet up for me and my INFS team, and I do plan on seriously moving around to take those pictures that I never took (plus, there really is SO much to see). Till then, take care everyone!

Ah Jon

Easter Holidays - Pre & Post

2009-04-11T08:47:00.002+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Nobody's Perfect
Mood: Okay
Random Note: "Bite My Glorious Golden Ass!"

It is a good saturday morning here.

So my holidays have started! I have been pretty laid back since my papers ended, that is why there wasn't any entry for a while. I do not know how well i fared yet, so I guess I'll just wait for the results to be given back to us.

Now it is quite interesting how I've been feeling for the past couple of days. Like, this whole roller coaster of emotions and thoughts (no, there isn't anything like WOW)~ Let me see what I can recall (starting with the more interesting ones):

I remembered sometime back in the week (think it was tuesday), I was feeling very disgusted at the state of cleanliness in the house! Haha! No wait, really! There were like, cockroaches in the house!!! Like, one day I could smack down 4-6. It was so disgusting lah (and that is excluding the ones X are killing)! T.T I felt so terrible that I had to complain to Sonia over the internet. Like, ultimate EW. I guess the worst part was this: X was kinda okay with it until I blew up XD

Sometime along the week (think it was monday), I had a really stressful time cramping information into my brain. I then realised that I need to make use of this holiday period ahead to work on my knowledge of subjects this semester. I just hope I will be able to catch up~ May the discipline in me shine man.

I went for a walk in the city on thursday (X wanted to buy a guitar so I thought I might as well ask a friend to show me around a little and see what I can gather)! It was kinda fun because this friend I knew from a tutorial class called Rocky (from CN) lives in the heart of the city. Took me around and showed me places here and there~ I tell you, there is like so much to see, and everything is just so beautiful @.@! Boutiques, shopping malls, people, harbour~ it was relaxing and I felt no stress for a while~

School is getting exponentially difficult. I find myself struggling to make friends when concentrating in classes. My cousin told me not to be a one-man show, so I am kind of worried what if I do not network enough~ Then again, I should try to make up for it this holiday by getting some people out. Also, it is a great opportunity to USE MY CAMERA!!! =D

Easter was exhausted for cleaning up the toilet and parts of the hall (for the first time in my stay in Sydney), watching lots and lots of Futurerama and resting. Apparently nothing is opened on this festive season, so I guess there really was not much I could do going out. However, I did wanted to go sight seeing around~ Like maybe to the beach or something you know?

We have been eating out for the last 2 days. Apparently X thinks we do not eat out often enough, so we ended up having outside food for a while. It was okay, but I have to admit that somehow, my tummy does not feel that good after that. I was not even able to do my running today because it hurts (like cramps) whenever I tried to start my 'engines' XD

Kenn is cooking us lunch this monday! And one of the most impressive things encountered for the week (I have to give it to him man) was that he made up this menu for us to choose what we want to eat! I was like WOW (<-- okay fine there is a wow XD)! Really, it has been a short while since I saw anyone put in such effort as a friend to make something a little more special! Maybe I just was not expecting this from someone I barely know~

Hey hey, now I am not forgetting anyone of you back home (or whereever you might be in the world). I mean, I will always remember people I love and care for. That is pretty much it =)

I do not know what else I will be doing for the rest of the day yet. Apparently X asked if I wanted to go out but he is now slacking in his post in front of his computer again.

Well, at least I know for myself: will head down to the supermarket later~ ^^

Ah Jon

Sunday Snuuuz!

2009-04-05T05:41:00.003+08:00

Music: Ratatouille - End Credits Track
Mood: Waking Up In Progress XD
Random Note: I said good day!

Oh man, the 2 assessments are on tomorrow! What am I going to do!!!

(*Sips coffee*)

Okay seriously, I have to give heads up to people whom can acutally just see somethings and then memorize them for life. I can never do that. Most of the time I get things through practice~

I suddenly realised over the week that I was never really hard working for the past 10 years of my education life. It is always last minute work that brings me "somewhere there", but never really hitting the target you know?

Laziness is my greatest weakness, and I am so gonna die if I head on this path anymore~ Which is why I actually made effort to go on and do homework and stuffs...can't believe it, but it really helps! It is like, I was never serious enough with school (Thinking back now, how the hell did I make it so far??)

Well, autumn is here and the weather is really kinda chilly. I have to cover myself fully when sleeping because omg it is cold. Daylight savings have been deactivated so it is now 2 hours ahead of SG time.

Life is good here in Sydney! I am still feeling the awesomeness of the vast city~ and I really want to go travel around once the exams are over. Got to last the week! *Grits teeth*

It's a beautiful morning, and X is still sound asleep in his room. He is having a rough time getting his assignment done (some essay I think). I wish I can help but I do not know how to~ *goes back to the kitchen* XD cuz I think it helps to eat good and sleep good before you can get good work done. Sides, I have good faith that it is a good learning experience for all of us.

I just recieved my departure photos from my aunt (like the remainder), and wow I miss home so much. I really miss having that close click of people whom I care about and cares for me. This moltivates me to just want to do my best to return home to account to the people whom matter most.

I am still very stressed over how to get myself over to my best pal's wedding in June. I feel like just going for it and heck it all, but I cannot bear to leave my grades behind (grades = family's hopes and my future combined together). How how how...T.T Please let my exams be on the first 2 weeks of the period. All will be fine if that happens.

Oh yeah, we had a friend over for the weekend. I did a really crazy thing by going for a party (not my idea) just before my accounting exams (my first exam in Sydney!!!).

Kenn and X really wanted to go so I figured that I should tag along to see if I can get to talk to more people. I prepared for my accounting on thursday, and friday nite we went down to Bondi Junction for the event.

Haha...in the end, it really was not that great anyways XD It's like, I refuse to take any alcohol the night before my papers, and the 2 of them just do not like loud music (I was fine with it for a while XD). But I was so suprised to meet Franchesca and Isabelle at the party! I was absolutely caught off guard when I saw people that I actually knew. Lols at that right?

The next day I went for my exams with the 2 people still dead as logs XD I TELL YOU, I want to complain. The USYD arrangement for our papers was like wtf! When scheduling for an exam, you always make sure there are enough seats for the paper (number one rule), and you make sure there are no ACTIVE CONSTRUCTION SITES WORKING ON THAT DAY! I cannot believe the arrangement man.

I was like "debit cash DRILL DRILL DRILL DRILL????!!!!!" So unprofessional and no standard! And the worst part is the invigilators do not really care in "providing a conducive environment" for us. Seriously, I am going to feedback if I come across the means to. I will not stand for such standards in Australia's top university.

Well, that pretty sums up all the interesting things that happened through the course of the week! Hope everyone is doing well~ Gonna go do work now, till next time!

Ah Jon

Saturday+Home

2009-03-28T18:57:00.003+08:00

Music: Nena - 99 Red Balloons
Mood: Great, Awake!
Random Note: I LOVE THIS SONG! O-- 0-- O-- = 3 x balloo0nz~

It's been a good day! I'm suprised at how awesome I'm actually feeling today.

It's been a day of shopping for grocery, reading my notes and cooking soup for dinner!

First thing I did was to check if my best pal was online, chatted with her over the webby cam before I headed out to buy stuffs for the entire week!

Man, I LOVE supermarkets...

I missed my grandmother's soup a lot, so I decided to pick up some pickles and cook some 'sze-chuan cai tang' XD It was somewhat nice, but still no grandma's lovely touch.

I AM SO OBSESSED WITH MY CAMERA! I feel like I actually missed out so much of my past because I never took enough photos. Now I am like at status "tourist". I take my camera and take everything XD Even my meals <-- Lols at that! =D

(I'll post pictures up soon, once I get enough stuff)

Today, things worked out well. I am feeling that energy again; that something that kicks me up and make me want to push forward. It is great to feel so alive! Not to mention how this is actually going to so help me get focused on getting work done~

Have 3 upcoming assessments~ It's gonna be a tough 2 weeks ahead! Here is wishing meself all the best man. I hope everyone back home is doing great (stressful probably, but hey...great can be both stressful + good. Trust me on this XD).

Ah Jon

Time

2009-03-27T15:13:00.003+08:00

Music: Nil
Mood: In pain and miserable still...
Random Note: I dreamt of my family AGAIN XD

I got this chain letter from a friend. Found it to be nice so here goes:

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

SON: 'Daddy, may I ask you a question?'

DAD: 'Yeah sure, what it is?' replied the man.

SON: 'Daddy, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?' the man said angrily.

SON: 'I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour?'

DAD: 'If you must know, I make $50 an hour.'

SON: 'Oh,' ... the little boy replied, with his head down.

SON: 'Daddy, may I please borrow $25?'

The father was furious, 'If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I don't work hard everyday for such childish frivolities.'

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions. How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down , and started to think:

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $25.00 and he really didn't ask for money very often The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

'Are you asleep, son?' He asked.

'No daddy, I'm awake,' replied the boy.

'I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier' said the man. 'It's been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $25 you asked for.'

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. 'Oh, thank you daddy!' he yelled. Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man saw that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father..

'Why do you want more money if you already have some?' the father grumbled.

'Because I didn't have enough, but now I do,' the little boy replied.

'Daddy, I have $50 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you.'

The father was crushed. He put his arms around his little son, and he begged for his forgiveness.

It's just a short reminder to all of you working so hard in life. We should not let time slip through our fingers without having spent some time with those who really matter to us, those close to our hearts. Do remember to share that $50 worth of your time with someone you love.

If we die tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of hours. But the family & friends we leave behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives.

----------------------------

It is disappointing how we all do not make enough effort to spend time with each other whenever we actually can afford to. I was just talking to my best pal yesterday and he tells me that he hasn't seen Sonia since the day I left for Sydney.

Oddly enough, I got a letter from Sonia telling me how busy Jeremy is with NS.

I still remembered that before I left for my studies, Sonia told me how lucky I was to have X with me on this trip, that I will have all the entertainment I'll need because he was the best.

Well X has gone off for his activity for the evening, and he'll be off to his activity for tomorrow as well. All I ever got was "unless you want to spend 25 bucks" to go to an anime convention, and that doesn't even sound like an invitation.

Am I really that poor a person to hang out with? I mean it's either I am so not interesting, or I am just a poor person whom doesn't deserve to have friends just because I cannot afford to go out as often.

And this awesome neck pain is just not helping me. I've been walking around the house with my head tilted 1/4 way because I cannot straighten it.

I miss having someone to at least allow myself to complain to in person.

Now I just feel like crying but I think I'll go do my accounting and econometrics.

Ah Jon

What A Strange Dream!

2009-03-26T06:44:00.002+08:00

Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - Endless Sorrow
Mood: Amazed and wierd XD
Random Note: I squished a cockroach with my barehands!

I had such a strange dream last nite! Okay I HAVE to jog it down before I go busy myself with random things~

I dreamt that my cousins were here with me in Sydney and so were my family XD It is so strange I tell you!

Then there was jx going around with me looking for an apartment and then there was this beautiful unit for rent at 250 and I was like going wtf (because it is cheaper than mine currently) and there was this beach dude talking to my cousins and...

OMG so strange!!! (But fun duh!)

Ah Jon

Posting Time

2009-03-25T17:22:00.010+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Nobody's Perfect
Mood: Energetic
Random Note: Omg I'm In Sydney!

I've been away and not updated for a while! Appolagies for the absence (not that I'm really sure if anyone reads this)~

(Oh what the heck it's for myself XD)

I went to Leanne and Simon's wedding last weekend @ Darling Harbour. Thanks to aunty Bee, I've gotten to experience what weddings are like in Aussie! I must say it was fun! Got to meet some people (Eva and her husband whom are both students @ USYD too), and had a good meal!

I thought hard about how each and everyone close to me was going to get married one day. It made me smile. Then I realised it really wasn't anymore about me, paused a while, and continued to smile.

That was when I actually knew that I can move on because I have faith that with a family, life will bring the complete experience for everyone! I suddenly realised the importance of making it for a wedding; it really isn't just about the event, but the opportunity for myself to be there one more time for another person's life.

Afterall, I do not really foresee any guest at weddings to be as important as the person they are going to spend the rest of their lives with! I just hope that when the time comes, I will be able to make it for the moment.

May there be love for everyone~ Haha!

And I've finally gotten my camera from home! Apparently my aunt and mum bought me a new digital camera, and I tell you it rox! Never in my life have I owned a camera~ It is strange because I was always looking for pieces of memories to keep, but never got to own such an important piece of technology!

I'll go around snapping more shots when I am able to! Man...so many things I want to take pictures of/with!

I had dinner with a bunch of friends yesterday night! I wanted to know more about other people, and it is really just so difficult to get to know people during lessons.

Here are some shots (from my awesome camera!!!!):

Lu (short for Luciana) is the first person I took initiative to talk to (had no idea where my courage came from XD)! She was quite lost @ the bus stop during my first week to school (t'was a thursday) and well, I decided to talk and hey~ I've a new friend! She's from Brazil, and she's doing her masters in Psychology now.

The new guy is Kenn, and he's from SG! Well, X and him are good otaku mates~ and he's doing his bachelor in science now~

Man I want to know so much more about other people I've met! I think I'm going to go scare them a little with my new AWESOME camera (yes, I'm using caps!)~

School is getting really tough. I'm actually finding it hard to catch up with others, but I'll still be continuing to give my very best! All the work is just flowing in and...zzz...XD

I'm going to stop myself here for now, so that I have some extra time for doing e-mails~ Till next time!

Ah Jon

Work Work~

2009-03-16T23:08:00.002+08:00

Music: Ayumi Hamasaki - Glitter
Mood: Awake & Alive!
Random Note: I like free stuffs. A lot.

I've just awakened from a 7 hour nap o.o!!!

Okay, so mondays are really tiring because for 6 consecutive hours I will be running to attend lectures and tutorials with 0 breaks in between.

Nonetheless, to do some good updates here before I head off to do some self-study!

I've been pretty lazy so the house is in quite a mess now. Mostly because I realized that I have a lot of reading to do, that is why I'm ignoring the 'must be clean' side of me XD There have been quite a number of crawlies in the house, and I better get to cleaning before the weekend comes! X and I will be attending a wedding function this saturday @ Darling Harbour~ Kinda looking forward to it because it seems like it is going to be something new!

(Probably rare too, I mean come on who will invite us other than our really close friends whom mostly refuse / will not be able to get married soon due to circumstances?? And I know a certain someone will beg to differ, but hey you are defintiely not part of this paragraph pal hehe~!)

Also, we caught Watchmen over the weekend at the IMAX theatre! Firstly, WOW at the screen size! Amazingly, it did not make me dizzy! Awesome thingy man...And the movie was quite impressive, with an excellent introduction credits! I mean for someone like myself whom always cannot catch what others are saying/ what is happening, I actually understood what the relations were about from that intro! XD Yay me!

X also intro-ed me to his friend Ken, whom he labels as 'more otaku' than himself XD Haha! It was fun and nice to meet someone back from home, and does not actually behave like he is from SG. He assumes ammulating the American accent from watching many TV shows back home~ Sometimes I do feel embaress acting so SG because everyone around me is just so Ang Mo, you know?

We finally got internet! So along with it comes much chatting with people and less of the loneliness~!

Well, so much for short updates! I guess I'll be visiting here again to sum up some thoughts when I have the time + remember to! Till then everyone~

Ah Jon

Doors

2009-03-12T10:16:00.003+08:00

Music: Olivia Ong – All Out Of Love
Mood: Terribly Depressed
Random Note: It is so cold.

It is exactly 3 am and I am unable to get back to sleep. I was awakened by a huge 'boom' sound.

I’ve had a really rough day at school. You know, one of those days when everything seems too big for you to handle? Well it really sucks.

I really wish there was somewhere I can pour out my troubles to. I am way passed the stage of fear and pain, and that is how I actually managed to get myself on to do an entry. I figured that there will always be this mean to get some steam out of my system. And honestly, I miss so many things tonight…

I am a natural worrier, and this becomes prominent whenever I am down. I am still learning how to give things time, space and chance. I assessed the possibilities of reaching this goal, and figured that I have to be able to close the doors to emotions. I cannot allow myself to feel, because that is my greatest weakness.

I just feel that I have messed up big time. It is almost like the inside of me lies this really untidy and wrecked party room, and I am just shoving everybody out of the door, and figuring out so hard how to clean up the place. I am so tired…and I am just drowning in the garbage.

No one can come in because the doors are locked. I do feel comforted though, because I know my little party room exists. I am not rich enough to hire a cleaner to help me out. All I can do is to wait for the moment to come when I will regain my common senses. I am cold and worn out, and all I want is just a paracetamol to remove the pain…

Guess I should stock up on pain killers XD

I will be trying to do some catching up on school work today. Need to seriously mug back the past 2 weeks worth of work. I want to get that grade I have set out for. Just wish my mind will be able to absorb the knowledge necessary.

I will be trying to move around by myself one of these days! They city is so vibrant and there is so much to see~ Till next time again I guess.

Ah Jon

Deep In Thought

2009-03-12T10:13:00.000+08:00

Music: Kim Junsung – Granado Espada
Mood: Positive & Worried (How do they get together, I have no real idea XD)
Random Note: I‘m not ready to eat a kangaroo

Today I decided that I must wake up real early to do an entry.

The past few days of lessons have been really taxing! I mean apart from the fact that I tried to pack everything together in 3 days (which meant that I needed to do 5-6 hours of consecutive lessons daily), the lack of internet (it is not here yet as I speak) + text books + printer is kind of driving me insane. There is so much information to absorb…

People-wise, I must say I haven’t been able to really make any friends yet. I mean I do talk to people and some of them are pretty nice, but everyone seems to have their own clicks.

I have a very diverse project group (by that I mean people with different mindsets) for one of my modules and that worries me. I want to try to make the best of it though.

Clubs and societies have yet to start organizing many activities yet, so there is still room to make progress there I guess. I am trying hard to make friends in smaller tutorial groups and remedial sessions (they call it PASS programs).

I finally met 2 random Singaporeans! PEOPLE FROM HOME! T.T Okay, and the really amazing part was that this happened after 6 hours of consecutive lessons (which meant I was totally trying to switch off). Stephanie and Francesca came up to me and said “hi”~ =) I was so happy to finally be able to talk a little more naturally! I sincerely thank them 2 for making that historical moment of ‘breaking’ the human barrier~ (hey this is important to me).

Finally, the most interesting and happy thing on top of all these, I am definitely glad that most of the people I’ve met thought that I was less than 20 XD! Oh yeah!

X and I are slowly getting swarmed with work from school, but we are currently still making some time to watch shows and relax together at home. He’s making dinner sometimes now, and hey! That is a good start for me I guess (that way people will not have to worry too much about me wasting too much time cooking). However, he definitely still has a lot to learn about the kitchen i.e. washing, taking care of equipment etc.

At this point in time, I want to bring out something that I am genuinely concerned about. I do not know if I am too meddlesome for my own good. I can look at situations sometimes and pick out flaws that are ‘obvious’ to myself. In doing so, however, I tend to make my comments and try to make changes to it. After that I will feel terrible because I do not know if I have distanced a relationship…

I am afraid of probing into other people’s business because I hold a real concern for them (this applies to anyone reading this right now). If you actually put me out into the real world, I probably do not hold back my punches as much. Somewhere out there, I am sure someone thinks of me as a stuck up nervous bastard whom just wants to be right all the time.

In the end, all that I am left with the only option of losing a person I really care about because they go on their way with anger that I did not wish for. And I cannot help but always feel that I have made mistakes that I can never undo.

Fact remains that all I ever wanted was just to be safe and made sure things were going to be okay.

(This feels so familiar; I actually think I have had such an entry before in my last blogs.)

I just have to deal with myself on this matter yeah? Well, till next time!

Ah Jon

The Real School Begins!

2009-03-08T10:30:00.004+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana - Just Like You
Mood: Hysterical
Random Note: Sydney has more than 50 Suburbs??

Okay, so here I am getting ready for $serious business$ school, and all is going to be fun and fine!

Reality checks:
- It is NOT easier in Australia! I'm actually afraid of so many things~
- There is so much information to be compiled and stored into my tiny little brain
- It is going to be tough making close friends in University (doesn't mean I'm about to give up! It's all about the difference in culture)
- I need to be more hardworking (I think)
- There is no way I can survive without working during my stay in Sydney~! So much I want but cannot afford...

There has been lots of things going on. Lemme slowly recall all the interesting ones ar~ (I'm sorry I didn't log em all down again dang! DISCIPLINE!!! I NEED PLX!)

Our arpartment is slowly falling into place with pieces of furnitures flowing into the house (tables, beds, chairs, stuff xD). I like setting up a house so much that I actually enjoyed the process haha! =D And we finally have decent music equipment in the house man...omg. *Misses MEGAWORKS T.T*

X and I actually went for the Mardie Gras Festival yesterday nite! So we were feeling a little adventourous, and wow it was an experience! I've never seen so many 1/2 naked people posing and having fun together before. We didn't go for the party and I told myself the next time I go for this annual event, I am so going to try to make the best of it (like totally take photos and all bcuz I ain't got no camera arrgh!).

Cooking feels like it is becoming a chore, but I'm still loving it because nothing beats the price and experience of doing my own meals! It does enable me to save more money this way~ Please let me continue to be able to do so for as long as I'm able to XD

I want to do so much more and I am kinda panicky because I do not know where and how to start. So I decieded that I must keep reading whenever I have the time~ Let's see how long I'll last with this arrangement.

I'm almost done with using the internet at Gloria Jeans for the day, and will be headed home to do some text reading before school starts tomorrow. Till next time!

Ah Jon

P.S. X and I will be starting a facebook group to log our sydney experience. Wonder if it will work~ Hmm...

Before I Leave~

2009-03-06T15:40:00.002+08:00

Music: Some random radio track!
Mood: Good
Random Note: I am really hungry.

I managed to buy 2 of my text books today! Couldn't get the other 2 because there wasn't enough money in my bank account T.T Super sad...

Anyyyyyways, am gonna head off home now peeps! Just before I run, can i request for everyone's blog again? Perhaps drop me an e-mail or leave a mark here because this PC did not have a copy of my favourites (which was where all your active blog addresses were).

Thanks a lot yo! Take care everyone, till next entry~

Ah Jon

End of a chapter

2009-03-05T23:30:00.001+08:00

Music: Olivia Ong – All Out Of Love
Mood: Mixture of sadness, rage and motivation (So cannot find the word I need)
Random Note: I think I'm hungry all the time XD

You all ready for a long entry? Read on if you want to try and understand what is on my mind.

There are many things in life that I am still learning about. I am convinced that there are ugly sides of human nature, and that we can never be too sure about ourselves as we are all given the free will to do whatever we want.

This is the first week at which I have studied at the University of Sydney! I honestly still love my school so much, but at the same time I am a little overwhelmed by the amount of work I will soon be faced with. It has been a while since I really worked my brain out.

My lecturers are all ‘international citizens’, from all over the world! It is going to be interesting receiving knowledge from them. Here’s a note to myself to work hard and make more friends~

Throughout the 3 weeks since I set foot on Sydney, I guess tonight is one of which I am very awake and sure of what I feel. This blog should comprise of what I had been doing (so as to update all of you my precious people), as well as some of the deepest emotions that I have (that is to relieve myself of stress). This is why only certain people can have access to it, because having a sensitive side will always be my greatest weakness when it comes to getting down to business.

I have always felt the need to conclude my chapter of “friendship” eventually, when everyone actually goes on to live their life. This is where I revisit my state of neutrality and allow myself to push forward. X always says that I tend to make negative visions in my mind happen in real life.

The truth is, I do not see the above as something bad. I want everyone that I had ever cared about to be able to live the life that they want, and find that happiness that they seek (this is definitely not the first time I am saying this). Everybody whom has access to this entry here definitely has the maturity level to understand what I mean by happiness (be it for relationships, religion, money or whatever else you can think of).

Strange thing is I always believed that I will be able to do the right thing when it came to deciding for anything with friends. These included:

- Giving them the space they need
- Giving them what they need to the best of my abilities
- Being there for them whenever they need someone
- Being there with them for what matters to them most
- Providing anything else that they lack when they want it

My motivation came somewhere from “hey, I can be this guy that will bring little pieces of happiness to other people’s lives”. This goes concurrent with what I am: just wanting to do my best. Reflecting back on what I had been doing, I figured some aspects that maybe some of you might have experienced:

- I was probably biased on many occasions
- I did not allow space for some of you because I just want to be there for the moment
- I was not there when some of you really needed me to be because I gave myself an excuse
- I was very sure of what you wanted even though you did not ask for it
- I keep having these ‘one big family’ ideas which you might not have/have wanted
- I do not admit that I am wrong when you think I am

Honestly, the list can go on.

My life has been very fine. Though I was never the favorite child in my family, I felt love. I was never loved by anyone outside, but I had the best of what friendship could offer (I do not know what else it could offer but it has definitely provided me with everything I thought of). I was well taken care of by all my relatives even though I was not exactly the best kid at home. My cousins always made it right for me whenever I seem to be “not able to make it”. I basically got what I wanted and never had to really worry much (looking back now, I did worry too much). I am a simple person whom can be very satisfied based on emotional support.

There are also the sides of me that were not as fine. I know that my family has a problematic person and that taught me valuable lessons. I know that I compromise myself in many situations because of what others want. I am always giving myself responsibilities for actions, whether they were mine or not to bear. It was all about what I perceived, without actually realizing how much I am giving up / putting at risk over time. I put ‘greater meaning’ into all my relationships without realizing that maybe other people do not want to / will not see it.

My perception of life is not all that happy. “Life’s like this, so what matters most” is always on my mind because I know I cannot handle everything (hence the choice of focusing on my niches as often as I can). I often see opportunities together with conclusions, which meant that everything had to have an ending. I believe I only get one shot at some things in life, and that it is a straight line to the finish. I fear loneliness but do not dare to commit because I feel that I am never good enough for anybody (hence my additional efforts to friendship). I know the time will come when I have to fight my own battles and that no one will be there for me because friends will have to go on their paths in life. I cannot guarantee that our paths can continue to be side by side even though I really want them to (most of you probably have a relationship by now and we have all seen how that can become a ‘way of life’).

The truth I have to bear is that humans make mistakes, sometimes only realizing it when it becomes too late. My personality, the kind that keeps me very safe, is something that most of you will agree to be something very useful in the world because it gets work done. Sometimes, that is still not enough. Chunz have made mistakes, some of them that I will never be able to forgive myself for. My natural passion for the ideal friendship makes me vulnerable to other people’s ideas. There may not have been any greater meaning for all I know, because everything is just on an emotional level that is scaled by me.

The good news for me is that I have been able to see the progress that people have made in their lives. My best reward was to be given moments that I want to be there for. I get to see people I care about making progress and becoming what they want to be.

I have come to the end of my current chapter with my friends. I thought hard about each and everyone of you, and I can safely say all of you can move on with or without me by your side. As much as I want to be part of your lives, I know I cannot be (at least for now). Somehow, there comes this combination of emotions. I want someone to shout to me “I am going to be with you, go on and take the leap”, but I just feel so lonely.

I have to face my fear of losing this self-painted picture of what mattered most to me, what motivated me for 10 years of my life. It is true how much energy one can derive from having appropriate emotional support (I am amazed at what I have done for some of you). However, right now at this present moment, I am afraid I cannot be anything more than just a human being whose path has crossed with others.

I feel very lost not because I do not know where to go, but because I feel that I have lost the sources of energy that kept my passion alive. Over time, I gave the conclusion for relationships with everyone…which was something that I never told anyone (not even my best friends). I saw the ending and had to just painfully remove certain of the responsibilities I enjoyed having which was what I felt I was living for (it is all still so emotional on the level though). I am afraid of getting hurt if I invested more and affected what was important to them, or in some cases to even affect their relationship with the article they are faced with.

Slowly over time, this will all seem so small~ we are living in a world that moves faster than what I can perceive (it only takes 24 hours for the earth to make a complete spin, covering more mileage than what I know). I am due for making progress academically, and I am still me when it comes to being the best of what I can. I have returned to becoming neutral, and I am not going to step through the doors of my emotions as often now. I cannot make people walk with me because I care for them, thus the choice of being what they want to be in life. I can no longer volunteer myself to be there for moments I want.

This is a chapter well concluded (with burdens I have to bear for times I cannot see ending to).

My best gal pal told me that I am not making enough entries about how I am doing, and I was just skimming through my entries (goodness, the amount of updates I am giving other people can make them really worried while telling them virtually nothing at all). Guess I need to get back to what I set out for: this blog to keep track of my beautiful journey in Sydney! I will try to update as often as I can about my progress more objectively.

Give me some time; I am learning how to cope with issues that need this element.

Ah Jon

Regrets for life

2009-02-28T09:29:00.002+08:00

Music: Valkyrie Profile Lenneth – Doorway to Heaven
Mood: I’m all over the place XD
Random Note: I define cheap shit.

Here I am 2 days before school starts.

It is all so exciting and weird how my choices have lead me to such a day where I have to face what I deemed to be ‘the time of my life’ feeling all so cheap about myself.

I’m never going to be able to respect myself because of some answers that I’ll never be able to find. It’s a pretty complicated issue.

You know how many people can just move on in life when they have something good to hold onto and focus their attention on? It sucks when they assume I can do it.

Maybe sometimes I cling on tight in so much hope that they will help me out and get me moving...? I do not know, and honestly I cannot blame anyone or anything for that matter now can I?

However, I have also made a deal to seal this forever within me with respect to what I have always deemed important. Yesterday will indeed be my last time exposing my sensitive side to anyone because I’m so messed up inside, no one can ever find out and cause me harm again.

I feel that I have played the roles of some ass that have taught people lessons in life. I am that cheap freak that people can just pick up and use without having to fear of any consequences. Happens at work all the time and that was fine.

Never did I, however, expect that the closest of people will be able to have such a freaking negative impact on me.

I have to move on because I need to be responsible towards my family and friends. That however, does not mean I am able to find peace because every single moment of my life now I am struggling to seek an answer that is forever lost in time. I f.ing hate myself to the guts for the moment and always will continue to be.

I’ve never felt so disgusted at myself ever. CHEAPNESS FOR THE WIN! WOOHOOO!

Cheers,
Ah Jon

Phone Woe (It haunts me!)

2009-02-28T09:27:00.001+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana – Best of both worlds
Mood: Good
Random Note: I miss carrot cake so much…

It’s a beautiful morning! I am wide awake after a nice long shower~ Oh yea!

(And X is still dead in his spot on the bed. I’m kind of staring at him as I type)

So life these past few days have been pretty fine. Things are slowly falling into place, and I guess I could get used to some of the stuffs soon i.e. the travelling time, the shopping for groceries, the people and such.

I need to get into the mood to buy myself a telephone here…it is so expensive! I kept telling myself I should get one just so that I could make calls home without disconnecting, but whenever I walk into a phone shop, I just cannot bring myself to buy.

Ah the stingy side of me for myself forever lives =( I guess I will try to get it soon…

We got some weights from the mall yesterday, and I will try to look better before I return to SG XD That is of course, if x is kind enough to teach me how to use them (he doesn’t seem to be able to understand the fact that I have never done any form of sports before).

On the entertainment side, I have been introduced to a series called Scrubs. It is quite a fun show to watch! As usual, my definition of ‘fun’ = really Ghay stuff e.g. lamer jokes, good acting. You guys should catch it too if you haven’t.

X was reading through his enrollment stuff yesterday night. His case seems to be a little more complicated than others, because there seem to be some restrictions on his timetables if he wanted to change course.

I realized quickly that I was going into my “get the job done” mode. For some reason, I seem to want to jump into situations and find the fastest solution for them. Sometimes, I do not realize how much people need to learn things on their own, and how some of these lessons in life have a certain importance to them.

It was like a sudden realization, the kind that made me feel good to keep myself quiet for the moment.

I guess it is okay to see people I care about getting stressed sometimes. My role still stands (as always being there whenever they need me), and I could give myself some space to do and think about things I wanted to do for myself.

Oh well! I will be leaving the house soon to go apply for the lease on this apartment. Will make breakfast first then wake my housemate. Catch you guys soon!

Ah Jon

(P.S. I can’t get through to my cousins by phone T.T no one picked up their phones when I gave them calls XD)

Rough patch…

2009-02-28T09:24:00.001+08:00

GONE!

Music: Hannah Montana – Best of both worlds
Mood: Great!
Random Note: I’m good to go.

Yesterday, I had a rough patch thinking about stuffs.

Today, I’m glad to say I’m ready to go and face the challenges ahead of me! Guess I’ve finally learned to move on from that huge ‘burden’ that I was carrying about a week ago.

X and I have decided that we will be taking this apartment for a while since it is quite a cozy (no the weather is still suckys! Quite cold that is.) Yup! So let’s now hope that we can get a decent lease from the owners soon~ I’ll keep you all posted on the residential address soon.

WE STILL HAVE NO INTERNET!!! T.T

(X thinks that’s what’s driving us really mad in the house XD)

I’ll be leaving in about 50 minutes to go enroll for my course! Omg omg omg! Am darn excited…

Let’s hope that I’ll be able to meet some good people today!

Ah Jon

Quiet morning

2009-02-28T09:02:00.000+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana – This is the life
Mood: Pensive
Random Note: I need a personal camera

Here I am wide awake on my 6th day in Sydney while my housemate is still dead as a fly. Hence, I thought why not make myself an entry =)

Last night I finally got my pre-paid SIM cards to work and made calls back to SG. It sure felt good to be able to talk to people you love and care about.

Just want to note that life is really quite a ride now, and I’m still learning to cope with certain issues i.e. how I’m feeling, how to live with a best friend, how to cope with all the uncertainty. I’ll be uploading photos as soon as I get a decent internet connection.

Take care everyone! You all are being missed and you know it XD

Ah Jon

My life needs adjustment

2009-02-15T12:17:00.000+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana – Just Like You
Mood: Sad
Random Note: This apartment has lots of sirens at night

Sometimes I really don’t know what to do. I feel that I am being overly nice because people tell me that I am, but I feel awful when I do not get to do what I want to even though I have the ability to.

Today X showed me a j-drama called ‘Proposal’. We managed to catch ½ of the episodes and it’s a pretty romantic show! XD X thinks of it as the perfect love drama for guys because well…maybe he feels for the lead in the show (he says it’s rare that shows have male leads).

The show was romantic and all. There were emotions and situations that I, for someone who’s never been in a relationship, was able to feel for.

I quickly realize that hey, though I never made it to any relationship with any other person, I have my friends. And all this while I’ve been so busy trying to create the perfect situations with people; I’ve so called ‘exceeded expectations’. Sure if any of my closer friends were to read this, they would be able to recall moments when it feels more of ‘romance’ instead of the norm friendship that should have been. All I really wanted was to make people happy (yes, and as my friend would have told me again, they never asked for all these to be done).

I believe in love. I really do. It is the reason why I am able to respect couples as they are whenever I meet any because I feel that “this could be the relationship that would bring them happiness! “

And above all this, I cannot bring myself to love someone when I’m not able to even be good enough as a friend. X told me many things that made me realize what an annoyance I had been for the past 8 years of my life. Many of you probably have felt that there were things that I shouldn’t have been too meddlesome with, and things that I should not butt my head into i.e. other people’s families, other people’s affairs, other people’s personal lives…

Seriously, when I do something it is probably because I wanted to. My principles still stand as of now: if I want to do anything, I will do it to the best of my abilities; otherwise you can forget about me putting any effort into it. For work, for relationships…it’s all the same! I feel that time is limited for my life, and that this is a straight journey down with no turn backs (we can revisit moments, but that does not mean we can truly re-live them).

I’ve managed to put my solid plans for school aside and not complicate them with my emotions. However, I believe I will not be recovering anytime soon from all these ‘realizations’. If as per my friend’s logic goes: It is not strange that no one had ever liked me, I have been overly helpful and positive about other people’s lives, and I have not been anything that I’ve really thought myself to be.

The irony…I always felt I was living the life I wanted, but without realizing how much of other people’s dreams I am destroying…

Ah Jon

I’m here in Sydney!

2009-02-15T12:15:00.001+08:00

Music: Hannah Montana – The Other Side Of Me
Mood: Excited!
Random Note: It really hurts!

I’m finally here! In Sydney, land for the future of my education! :D Okok, let’s take this slowly and I shall try my very best to recall every bit of it thus far!

(Btw, it’s been 2 days and this is my very first post in foreign land XD)

It was the day to go, 10 Feb 2009. I still had a list of things I wanted to do, which went something like this:

- Get hair trimmed
- Get pants altered
- Get nail cutter
- Get stationary
- Get battery calculator

(Yes, I am still such a last min guy. Please let the future change this!)

Went around early in the morning and was not able to fulfill anything (cuz all the shops were not opened)! Can still remember how nervous I was when I couldn’t get anything done. Nonetheless, I had to meet my friends for a meal at Sushi Tei Holland. Thanks Jeremy, for the wonderful meal, and for accompanying me to finish up my tasks after that.

So everything happened really quickly. Before I was even packed, I needed to leave home (yes, and poor Jeremy had to wait for me for about 30 mins because I was so not ready).

Guess I panicked and didn’t know what to do~ I wanted so much to bring along a special pendent that my best pal gave me so that I could wear it along to her wedding…dang! I hate myself for not being able to find it in time (I’m really sorry about it)…

Me rushed down to clement central to buy the last bit of re-fills that X asked for before rushing down to my cousins @ T3, Changi Airport with Jeremy. Man…on the way there, I just didn’t know what I was experiencing; mind was in a fluster, was just typing away my farewell sms-es and trying my best to maintain my cool. My mind was just bursting with emotions…

I met up with my cousins at the airport for a last meal in SG. We had Popeye’s and my cousins each gave me something to bring along for this trip: A blue jacket (which proved to be very useful because OMG IT IS SO COLD HERE IN SYDNEY) from Jx, a pen from KT & Irene which makes my handwriting look uber l33t (XDXDXD), and a lip balm from Zr which smells really funky. Above all, my cousins gave me an organizer for me to bring along, which was the dearest gift of all because inside carried the efforts and memories of what mattered to me all my life: My family. I really love it and I intend to fill up the book with more of what is to come~ Thanks Cousys!!!

Everyone must continue to work hard, and we will be seeing each other before we even know it =)

My cousins Keith and Yong Ann came first to the airport, followed by Aunt Angela & Uncle David, Aunt Alison & family, Aunt Lang Yi, Mum and finally Bro & Sister + Grandparents. Everyone came to send me off and…as much as I really felt dreadful inside, I know that this is it. It was just time for me to go.

(Oh yea, there was a little hiccup at the airport when we wanted to check in our luggage. Just remember that when you visit Australia, do not forget that your luggage cannot exceed 32.5 Kg in weight or else you can’t go in.)

Inside my head, I was feeling so fantastic and horrible at the same time: I know that when I made the decision to go overseas months ago, I had to leave behind everything that mattered to me. This means no mum, no sis, no bro + no cousins + no aunties + no comforts of home. Yes I was able to say this is what I want, for a better future, for the better of all that mattered to me. That makes me feel awesome because I’m going to fight for what I want.

On the other hand, I know that I had done a very selfish thing just by leaving everyone behind. True, it may appear that everyone had given me their blessings and aids, but deep down inside, I know that there are some people whom can’t bear to see me go. I feel terrible at the same time. And who knows what awaits me in this road ahead…ultimately, I’m experiencing the extremes of both sides.

The plane ride was kinda bad! Though I did get to ride on the really really HUGE A380 with great services and food (I LOVE BE-JEWELED!), there was too much turbulence. Couldn’t catch any rest at all because the plane was just jerking all the way through. Urggh…But I’ll definitely still want to book my return flight on an A380 again! It’s HUGEEEEE XD

This is my first time taking Singapore Airlines. All by myself without supervision too XD

The mind still re-calls the moments before take-off, the flight and the landing…I’ve arrived at my destination. Man, the feelings are just…

The most amazing thing happened when we landed: My mobile phone just died on me. I couldn’t get it to start and there was no way I could contact Aunt Jenny / uncle Leong. We were stuck for a little while until Uncle Leong spotted us out of the blue! Thank goodness…XD I wasn’t really panicking, but just really annoyed that the phone had to go in such an un-cool manner!

We went down to our apartment and oh wow…it’s a pretty huge place! I liked it a lot if you asked me. No qualms about it! There were 2 rooms, a toilet, a hall and…A KITCHEN! I mean how awesome is that~

(Oh yeah, the next time anyone takes any flights, just try to grab some rest after landing.)

After leaving our luggage back at the apartment, Uncle Leong and Aunty Jenny brought us out to eat at a nearby place. X and I also set up our bank accounts upon arrival @ Westpac bank.

We made our way down to the university on the second day with help from one of Uncle Leong’s friend. I just have to say, I LOVE THE UNIVERSITY CAMPUS! I mean, apart from the awesomeness appearance wise, I saw the future that as before me. Too bad I dun have my personal camera...otherwise I would have taken more photos for safekeeping.

We did some grocery shopping later on in that evening and bought some food and necessities. My little home for the next few weeks =)

I miss my cousins particularly much. I miss my mum, sister, bro and Aunty Angela very much.

And here I am now, on the 13th of February 2009 at 3.07 am. Am feeling the loneliness, and still thinking about the possibilities of awesome times ahead.

Ah Jon

Lunch With My Aunt Angela

2009-02-05T12:03:00.005+08:00

Music: Lilo & Stich - He Mele No Lilo
Mood: Okay
Random Note: Confusion is a terrible thing.

Had an eventful 3 days since my last post =)

It will be less than a hand's worth of fingers before my best friend and I set out for the next chapter of our individual lives. I can say I'm extremely excited, as well as nervous about it.

I met my aunt and her boss uncle David for lunch yesterday. Uncle David brought us to go eat dim sum at vivo city's Hei She Hui (Bosses). I like that place! It serves pretty nice food, and the portions are not miserable =) The meal was meant to be as a farewell gift to me, and I'm really really thankful to have uncle David and his advice throughout my planning for this trip. He even gave me a small token of appreciation, which I will be putting good use to for my overseas trip.

Haha...He is an understanding man. Initially when I first met him, I found out that he is a pretty talkative person. He would offer lots of advice, and together with that tiny details and personal aid. And after meeting him for a few times, I've grown to respect him as a kind and helpful person. He seems to be able to understand how I felt and about the stress that is omni-present inside me now.

Got to go out for a meal with my my friends in a while, have to go get ready. Catch ya all later!

Ah Jon

Dang! Xing Nian Kuai Le!

2009-02-02T15:46:00.003+08:00

Mood: At peace, Glad
Music: Hannah Montana - Life's What You Make It
Random Note: MY VOICE!!! T.T

Nuuuuuu! I lost my voice!

(Remember when I said I was going to munnch on goodies till they are all gone...? XD)

This is what too much new year goodies can do to you! And a random afternoon nap.

"Oh you are going to miss all these when you go there" says everyone.

Haha! Well, this CNY's been all about food! Renuion dinners and visiting of relatives CAN make you a very happy man.

So, like any other new year, I did my regular visiting to my grandma's and aunt's. It was awesome to see everyone, and of course this time everybody asked me about my study trip to Sydney! It was all "oh I'm leaving on the 10th" and "I'll be doing a degree in Finance". Am pretty much repeating myself, so after a the 7th or 8th person asks you in the same home, it kinda became a little bit irritating lolx!

I guess I can't really get too irritated telling other people about what is about to be the most exciting chapter of my life yet now, can I? =)

So sides my family (cousins and all inclusive), I will be definitely be missing the food here so very very very much...T.T Better get myself into my kitchen again this week to get myself in the mood for lots of self-catered meals! ^^

My work had ended at Prudential on 30/01/09. My colleagues got me a backpack and a watch =) I do feel that it was really kind of them, since I was afterall just another temp boy XD I am gonna be bringing both of em with me to Australia, together with all the other experience I've gained! Now that's a concluded 6 months of my life after ORD (oh wow, sure felt like ages ago)!

Note to self: I will continue to be the best of what I can be, anywhere I go! Thanks Karen and the claims department for teaching me so very much~

We celerbrated zr's 21st birthday over a series of 3 days (30th - 1st)! First nite was spent at our aunt's place with LOTS of great food! Our aunts cooked and prepared for her, and we all just ate to our bellys' content! Her second day was held at aloha changi function room, where she did all her celerbrations with friends and more friends (think it was like 40 odd people)! We did an over-night at her place after that, stretching the celerbration till the 3rd day (though she didn't wake up the 3rd day's morning to have brunch with us)!

And I will never let kt and jx order food without me again! Eat until almost burst on the sides! O.O~

(We had chicken rice for 3, chee Cheong Fun, Fried Toufu, Fried Shrip dumplings, Har Kow, Fried Kway Teow, Fried Hokkien Mee -- Kt, Jx, X and myself to devour it all!)

Spent the nite visiting sonia's yesterday. Her dad whipped up some really awesome stuff and we just ate ate and ATE (again)! It was awesome! Apart from that, we did Pirates 2 and 3, Doctor Horrible and lots of black jack~ XD

I realised at so many points in my post I wasn't able to provide any pictures! Got to try and get my hands on photos and a camera as soon as I can~

With regards to my previous post, I guess it will have to wait for itself to be resolved. There are things I need to say, things I must do, and there's not really much point for me to go make a whole lot of drama out of it. For now, I must constantly be reminded that School and Family is my life.

Gonna go pack up more of my stuffs into the luggage. Catch up again soon!

Ah Jon

(Seems) The World's Falling Apart...

2009-02-02T12:01:00.004+08:00

Mood: Seriously Depressed
Music: Fans of my room's computer, Cars out of my window
Random Note: Am I really unattractive?

I still haven't given anyone access to this diary of mine. I feel somehow, that once I've done that, I would lose a space that I'm comfortable with.

I'm feeling so bad, I think it's because I'm stressed out over packing for my trip.

I have much to blog about my CNY, but I want to go catch a nap first...can't think straight at all.

Somehow, I feel very alone in this walk of life now. I wanted so badly to leave the country with my best friend...and now, I'm just not able to make the best of it at all. I'm so tense I keep getting these heart sinking feeling (and I know very well that I only get those when I'm feeling rock bottom depressed). It's almost like I'm having a heart attack, but the kind that can't temporarily black out my senses because it's nothing really serious.

Am I just worrying too much?

This really feels like a solo jog down a cemetary; not because I want it, but because I ain't getting any affirmation at all from my to-be-housemate. I dun even know if I'm wanted...that's how I honestly feel. Best part about this is I can't even express myself anymore because this is just all so pointless. It's like an aeroplane can hit me now and I will not care.

I'm getting giddy, gonna sign off.

Ah Jon

It's Chinese New Year's Eve!

2009-01-25T18:48:00.005+08:00

Mood: Good
Music: Granado Espada - Espada Nigero
Random Note: I'm eating too much.

Phew! The week's been really rushed!~ Since the day 2009 arrived on the english calander, I've not been able to have one day of peace mentally. Work had been really taxing, and school planning is both exciting and time consuming. The last 2 weeks of my life @ home, I just want to spend the best of it with my family and friends.

Strange things have been happening in my sleep! I keep getting nightmares, including those about not being prepared enough for my overseas trip (I dreamt of an evil clown too). Perhaps I'm getting too much done with such little time...dang my bad habit of doing things so last minute!

That is why I am going to make good use of the time next week to pack up my luggage! Looking at that huge bag makes me go "omg."~

I've been wanting to sit down and compile my thoughts. It's sad that I still dun possess enough discpline in doing these things (somehow, a game of warcraft kinda feels more appropriate over typing XD).

Life is full of ups and downs. Looking back at what I've experienced on sunny home island for the past 22.5 years, emotions are mixed.

Goving overseas to pursue my carreer had always been something that I've dreamed of but never really expected to happen. As far as my memory serves me, I've always wanted to go see the world outside. Now that the option have surfaced for me, I just keep worrying so very hard on how to make this the perfect experience.

A side of me knows that not everyone gets opportunities, and that's probably why I can't set my mind to be at peace yet. Guess I'll get settled in soon, since the board is already set to go.

I've always relied a lot on my family and friends for support. Perhaps most people see me as someone who is very independent and reliable, but if you've hanged around long enough...I guess Jon is pretty much just a human. I mean, come on - I'm not handsome, not rich, not talanted, which kinda equates to not being so attractive / popular in most cases.

My Family had been able to give me the necessary lessons in life: learning to be strong and independent. I am proud to say I cook, wash, organise and do all those very "aunty" things...yea you heard me! XD My mum, my sister and my bro each had taught me how to handle situations, and I am more than just glad to forever be bound to them by relation.

My family also consists of my cousins, which I am eternally grateful for the great times we've conjured over the years! Kt, Jx and Zr...are probably going to be the 3 people I'll miss most during this trip away. They are the people who've been with me through all good and bad, and it really pains me to think of how much I won't be seeing them (we always meet up so regularly that it's become a habit to just organise impromptu stayovers). I will definitely think a lot about em...

Not to be forgotten would be my aunts, who've been there to make life better and more importantly, given me the opportunity to pursure my tertiary education abroad. Always there to lend me a helping hand, teach me new stuff, or even just to share cooking tips and a good meal with me...I'll miss them much too. They are the people whom had inculcated the idea of "one big family" in me, always reminding me that hey, there really is no place like home... =)

(...Where I can be as absurd and ridiculous as I want to be and nobody cares XD)

Having said all that, I guess there's only more room now for me to fight for what really matters to me in life! =) It does console me to know that everyone is giving me the support I need, and having the faith that I'll be able to make it...sometimes I dun really know what I've done to derserve such good from anyone, and that itself will serve as a force of moltivation to keep me moving forward and strive for excellence.

I'll love to type more, but now it's time to clean up my house for 2009's Chinese New Year Woohoo! Lot's of FOOD in the house! Gonna munch on them till they're all gone! Hehe!

Ah Jon

First Times.

2009-01-21T18:10:00.001+08:00

Mood: Pensive
Music: Hannah Montana - If We Were A Movie
Random Note: My MP3 player is dying T.T

Everybody probably remembers many of their first times in their lives, some of them more memoriable ones being:

- First loves (oh my, the WILD puppies)
- First kisses
- First hanky panky moments (wat?)
- First private moments~ (and I dun want to go about elaborating that!)

Well, it's good to know that I'm still young enough to find "first times". Today, I made a sucessful "deal" in getting the phone exchanged for my bud!

On normal occasions, people tend to find me the quarrelsome one who'll always be able to argue with the service person for a better deal. You see, the fact is I usually argue because I have a well-thought out idea of why "this is sensible, logical and I want it my way". I do not (usually) try to rip a person off just because it would benefit me.

It was definitely my first time having to go into a place to get something fixed even though I couldn't think of a "sensible, logical" idea XD I must say, it was really a first time for me to remember. I was never so nervous in getting the services I want from a store before.

You see, logically the iPhone's warrenty does not cover cosmatic defects. Further more, no coverage will warren personal accidents.

Okay, so technically I had to lie my way through the entire 2 sessions of getting the job done. I feel terrible about it! Honestly I do (never. never ever done it till this very day)...

And I guess it felt like right thing to do if we were gonna leave the country on a peaceful note (trust me, you do not want a X with a sad face + the thought of "because you asked 'wat time is it'").

So having balance up my guilt + having a happy buddy = Okay me. Still...there are many many many lingering thoughts in my head. Am kinda too tired to compile them now.

Left the phone at X's place and headed home for some rest. I must say, I am impressed with Apple's customer service. It is really quite efficient, and the staff are friendly (though you might have trouble understanding their accent as they seem to be from different nations. I spoke to a philipino and australian I think).

Please do not confuse Apple's services with what's offered at Singtel. I emphasize on that matter please! XD

Nonetheless, I owe the 2 staff a letter of recommendation (with special compliments to the guy since he was the one whom initiated the exchange on the spot). Will have to get that done soon! =)

Time to hit the sack, good nite!

Ah Jon

"What Time Is It?"

2009-01-20T23:18:00.006+08:00

Mood: In Shock.
Music: Hannah Montana - Nobody's Perfect
Random Note: I love mini mandarin oranges!

Today, the most shocking event (yet) of 2009 just happened to me and bud.

X met I for dinner at holland and it was cool. I guess was just feeling bored, so I wanted to meet for a meal and do some chat.

So after the meal of laksa, we were walking out from holland...then I asked "What time is it?"

Did i mention that X got a BRAND new iPhone? XD Guess many of you will be seeing him use that soon! He keeps on emphasizing that he's lost his "Apple Virginity" since the iPhone is his first Apple product.

I'm proud to say, I'm still free of all of Job's products. Won't say no to them, but haven't found the urge to get any of them =)

So, X took out his iPhone to look at the time and it slipped out of his hands onto the gravel pavement.

We both stood there with a WTF look and letted out some strange sort of a scream + cry noise. It was really...say, heart-stopping when the phone flew out of his hands.

Staring at the phone, we were so shocked. It was a genuine ZOMGWTFBBQ + T.T situation. I mean seriously, "how can this happen!!!"

The corners of the phone were visibly scratched. Though everything else seemed 'normal', I was pretty sure we both didn't feel anything near that!

I guess I felt partly responsible for asking about the time...so here I am now, with a scratched iPhone in my room with me.

I'll attempt to make a switch for him tomorrow.

Ah Jon

P.S. Oh if it makes the news anymore tragic than it already is, X only got his phone yesterday =(

Founder's Day! Founder's Say!

2009-01-19T22:19:00.008+08:00

Mood: Bleh!
Music: Hannah Montana - Rock Star
Random Note: I Love Hannah Montana The Series!

Welcome Aboard!

This is the beginning of a new chapter of uncle Jon's life! It was sad to dump my previous site (espcially when I liked the title and blog address so much!), but I'm sure a fresh start would be definitely awesome!

(By the way I love the new address! It's funny reading it in english and mandarin yo!)

If you managed to get yourself a glance at this fantastically plain blog within 7 days from this post, you are defintely a priviledged member! XD

I'll get myself some discipline to do update as often as I can afford to! Will need some consultation from some of you out there to get this thing done up pretteh! =D

Summary for the day:
The day was TERRIBLE! I'll cut the story real short: My work @ office today was a terrible drag, then my phone died on me, after that the service centre wouldn't repair my phone without my warrenty card, and when I wanted to board the bus farecard had no value left (and of ALL THE DAYS, i had not a single dime with me!!!)

Glad that's all over!

Now that I've reserved such an awesome place for myself on cyber-space, it's time to grab some quality rest at lala-land!

Good nite Bloggy! (as well as anyone whom had the patience to complete the short post!)

Ah jon